Change My Mind

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

Jenna’s POV

“It was horrible. It’s like I relived it.” I sobbed. I was sweating and breathing really hard. I was crying into his shirt, soaking it with my tears. We stayed like that for ten minutes until I stopped sobbing so hard. I had calmed down a little but tears still poured out.

I lifted my head from his shoulder and wiped my cheeks with the back of my hand. I can feel Niall’s hand rubbing my back up and down trying to calm me down. Little gasps escaped from my mouth and I am trying so hard to keep them in.

“Hey, do you wanna talk about it?” He said softly. I shake my head because I have never told anyone about my sister. Not even my closest friends. “Alright.” He says still letting me soak his shirt.

After a little while, I decided to go to bed. I get up and stretch my hand out for him and he follows me into my room. I need a little comfort, tonight especially.

I lead him to my room and I quickly jump under the covers and feel the warmth of my blankets surround me with comforting heat. I can feel Niall dip his side of the bed and lay next to me, snaking his arm around my waist telling me everything will be okay.

I know I can trust him, but I just can’t trust him with a secret so big. It will probably change my life if I did tell him. He’d treat me differently.

I really didn’t go to bed until about five in the morning, afraid that I will have the same dream again. Niall probably fell asleep twenty minutes after we went to bed. I could hear him snoring lightly.

I tried to pry his arms from me, but I didn’t want to wake him up, so I was stuck there until he woke up. I checked the clock 6:04 A.M. I might as well get some sleep since it’s barely light out.

“Jenna, wake up.” She said. “Wake up.” I woke up gasping for air. It happened again. The nightmare.

“Hey, you okay?” I nodded rapidly. I covered my face with my hands. I stood up to go to the bathroom to wash my face.

I filled my hands with cold water and splashed it on my face. It felt refreshing. I looked real hard into the mirror and noticed my eyes were really puffy and red. I didn’t care because I didn’t feel like going to work today. I’ll just call in sick.

When I walk out, I see Niall sitting there with a cup of hot chocolate. I shake my head and smile slightly. He always knows how to cheer me up. On the nightstand, there are a few chocolate chip cookies.

I sit down on my bed and grab the mug. It’s slightly cooled which I love and I dip one of the cookies into it and bite into it lightly, savoring the mix of chocolate. “Thanks.” I say very softly.

When I finished my lovely snack, I burped and smirked while Niall makes a disgusted face. I wanted to laugh, but I am just not in the mood to laugh.

I look at Niall and he is still smiling. “What? What are you smiling at?”

“You.” He says stilling staring into my eyes. I look at his lips. His pink, plump lips. They’re just to die for. I want to kiss him, but I know I can’t. My instincts are telling me I should, but my mind tells me no. I trust my instincts more, so I plant a huge one on him. My insides melt and I brush my fingers through his hair.

He grips my waist and pulls me into him even more. I climb on top of him, straddling his lap as the kiss got heated. I start to tug on his hair, earning a moan or two. He makes his way down to my neck and starts to leave a love bite. My cheeks get flushed and I end it before it got too far.

“Did I do something wrong?” I shake my head and put my hair up in a ponytail.

“It just got a little far.” He nodded his head and kissed my forehead, letting out a sigh. I feel bad I ended it because I actually wanted more, but I know it’s wrong. I have a date with Harry tonight.