Book Boy (Namjin)

Chapter 15

I pull up in front of Jacksons house and sit on the car for a while. This isn't right, I don't like Jackson anymore. Why am I doing this? I sigh and get out of the car. Jackson lived in a really nice house with sound proof walls so that no one could hear what he was doing in there. His neighbors didn't like him that much because he always had boys and girls coming in and out. I walk up to the front door getting a few dirty looks from people.

"Back for more are we?" Says Mark, his neighbor. To explain this is complicated, I dated jackson right after they broke up. I was friends with him and when Jackson and I started dating he got angry and hated me.

"Mark, you look well" I say.

"Fuck off" He snaps. I ring the doorbell. Jackson peaks his head out and pulls me inside.  He pulls me through the house to the stairs in the back. I'm familiar with these stairs from all the times I climbed them when Jackson needed me. He stood in the doorway and waved for me to come in. The room changed a little since I left.

"I don't think I want to do this anymore" I say.

"Namjoon-ah, come on" He says. I sigh and sit down on the bed.

"What game do you want play" He asks handing me a video game controller. I held it confused as to why he actually called me over.

"You look confused" He says.

"I am, why did you call me over here?" I asked.

"I missed playing games with you" He says. I thought he wanted something else.

"That's not what you wanted me to come over" I say setting down the controller on the bed.

"You're right, I want to have sex with you again" He says.

"I'm not in the mood for this Jackson, I need to go" I say standing up. I start walking towards the door but he runs and slams it shut. He guards the door not letting me pass.

"Jackson, I don't have tome for this. I have to go to work" I snap. I grab his arm and try to pull him off but he was too strong. 

"Namjoon oppa" He says sexily. He kisses me then starts undoing my belt.

"Jackson... Get off" I snap, I wanted this but I knew it would be cheating and Jin would kill me. 

"Just let it happen, I can explain to him" He says. He starts palming me through my underwear. I give in and moan.

"You take full control this time though" I say.

*Jin POV*

I woke up shirtless and covered in sweat, I wasn't sleeping with anyone I was still on my couch. The Tv was off and my floor was covered in empty beer cans. When I checked my phone I saw that I had a few missed calls from Namjoon. I sit up and stretch my arms, my phone rings so I answer it.

"Hello" I snap into the phone.

"Jin, please forgive me" Namjoon begs.

"What" I say.

"Jackson...he uh, I'm sorr-" I hang up and set my phone down on the table. I lied back down and closed my eyes. It was just one day and he is with another guy. Was I just another guy to him? I pick up the phone and call him back.

"We need to talk, come to my place" I say as soon as he picks up. I didn't bother to change or clean up so I stayed on the couch until the door bell rang. After an hour the door bell finally rang. I answer the door and found Namjoon crying. 

"Come in" I say. He nods then comes in. He takes his shoes off and leaves them by the door. He stands awkwardly waiting for me to yell.

"I understand if you want to break up with me" He says.

"I don't want to. But something needs to change, I will no longer go to clubs or bars with you. Also, was I just another guy to you? A day after I left you went with another man. He even left marks on you. Was I just another guy to you" I say trying to hold back tears.

"You aren't just another guy to me, your different than all the other guys I have dated" He says.

"That's what they all say" I snap letting a tear fall.

"Look, baby-"

"Don't call me baby" I snap.

"Alright fine, I do really like you and I enjoy spending time with you and I am willing to change a few things so that we can stay together" He says.

"Don't drag me to clubs or bars. I only wanted to drive you guys back but I got beat up. I don't want this to happen again" I say pointing at my bruises.

"Does it hurt?" He asks.

"I think you know the answer to that" I snap. He nods in agreement. He sigh and relaxes his muscles a little.

"We can get over this, it's not the worst thing in the world." He says.

"We can get over it but we can't forget that this ever happened" I say.

"No but... what do we need to do?" He asks. I look at the time for no reason but it reminds me that I need to give Hoseok his last check today.

"I need to go, I will be right back stay here" I say putting a shirt and coat on. I grab my wallet as I run out the door. I walk at a fast pace past all the slow walking people. 

Hoseok stands inside the shop reading a book waiting for me. When I enter he gives me a pitiful look then puts the book back on the shelf.

"Sorry I'm late" I say.

"It's fine" he says irritated. I give him a quick glare then I dig my wallet out of my back pocket so I can pay him. I hand him some money then close my wallet.

"How's Namjoon?" He asks.

"Good, we are just trying to work things out at the moment" I say. He nods then leaves. I watch as he turns the corner and disappears behind the brick wall. I leave and walk back home to Namjoon who is waiting for me.

As soon as I close the door Namjoon presses me up against it and kisses me. I look down trying to hide that I was blushing. I felt like the second time we kissed because the first time wasn't romantic. He takes my coat off and hangs it on the all then leads me to the couch. He kisses me and I fall onto the couch. I stand up but he sits down. He grabs my hands and pulls me towards him, I sit down on his lap facing him. I rest my hands on his shoulder and he rests his hands on my waist. We sit kissing for the longest time. I felt that I forgot everything and the only thing I knew was him.