Ultraviolence

You're crumbling, sadly

14th February 2017

Amelia

I sat down comfortably in front of my computer screen, the only illumination in the room was that of the dimly lit monitor staring at me.
The light shone on my pale face as i read through my messages each one from the same unknown person, the details of the messages had various ranges of cute and creepy, the line between a compliment and an obsession had been blurred. Sighing, I turned off the monitor and just stared at myself in the reflection of the computer screen. I touched the sides of my face, pushing my skin back to make myself look thinner.

Breathe in I'm beautiful breathe out
Breathe in I'm-

The door flew open as my roommate Rose came in with bags of shopping hanging in packs around every limb, the plastic bags ripping at the seams. Her blonde hair that was once straight was now frizzy and reaching out towards the heavens.
She stumbled into the kitchen as she turned on every light switch that she passed until she reached far Corner of the room, placing the bags on top of the oak kitchen cupboards, staring at me in concern as she did so.

She paced towards me slowly fiddling with her pastel pink finger nails before squatting next to me, placing her hands on mine as she did so.

"Did you stay like this all day?" She asked with a voice as sweet as the honey scented shampoo she was wearing. I nodded, avoiding eye contact in fear that if I did for a second I could break.

"Well did you at least eat?" She asked voice dripping with distress, the faux fur of her pastel blue cardigan reaching out towards me like accusing fingers.

"I told you to stop with the eating thing, I'm getting better I promise," I whispered holding eye contact with Rose.

She stared back.

"Well I keep telling you to eat but you never do it, just eat!"She exclaimed, throwing her hands out.
We both sat in an uncomfortable silence, the only sound that we could hear were our deep breaths, each becoming faster and louder as if fighting for dominance before dying down like a fire in the rain.

"please just eat, I just want you to be okay." She looked me in the eyes
Penetrating my soul like a spear.

"Then...maybe,we can go to the cinema." She suggested shrugging her shoulders

"Why would I want to go to the cinema?" I question brushing my hair out of my face.

Rose looked at me in complete disbelief for a few seconds
"Because its Valentine's Day... and I think you need cheering up, you know, just stop worrying. Plus a movie called 'the choice' is premiering in town and I've heard good things."

"I just wanted to watch something on Netflix" I sighed, giving her the best puppy eyes I could mange.

After a few more disagreements we decided that going outside would be good for me as I haven't seen the outside in a while. My boss decided that it would be better for me to work at home, since I kept feeling nauseous and dizzy at work.

As we sat in our attached red velvet seats at the cinema we watched as the 'best romance film of the year' unfolded in front of us. I would rather bang my head against a brick wall for hours on end then watch this movie but I guess
It was better than sitting at home doing nothing.

Rose sat picking up each individual popcorn kernel and placing it into her mouth until the box was half empty. I knew while I was watching the movie that she was watching me to see if I ate anything. So I picked up a handful of popcorn and placed it into my mouth, a greasy, buttery taste exploded over my tongue as I managed to refrain from gagging. She seemed satisfied that I ate it so while she turned away I quietly spat it all out into a napkin and kicked it under my seat and carried on watching the movie.

Once we were making our way out of the theatre and into our apartment complex it seemed that the hallways were only becoming longer with every step we took, the heels of our feet aching like we had placed hot coals inside of them.

We walked to the white wooden door of our shared apartment, i fumbled with the door keys in my shivering fingers before I managed to turn the key inside the chipped lock and we stepped inside. We were greeted by a frigid breeze which worked its way into our bones and rested there, not a second after did we realise something. The window at the centre of the wall in front of us was wide open, furthermore so was the door to my bedroom.

We both ran straight inside and saw a pink heart shaped box lying on my pillow, in the centre was a dark red bow that I gave one gentle tug at and the entire outer layer of pink and red unraveled revealing a box of round milk chocolate. On the inside of the lid was a note written in black ink.

Dearest Amelia

I brought a gift as sweet as you are

Love from
Your valentine
xxx

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