I Guess I'll Go Home Now [An All Time Low Fan Fiction]

Chapter 10

I couldn't speak. All words had left me. Alex was tugging at the sleeves of my jumper, pulling them up to reveal the scars all over my wrists and up my arms and a few very fresh cuts. I

"Shit!" he shouted. He looked terrified at the blood still seeping from the cuts. I didn't care though. This was normal for me, I deserved it. I just desperately didn't want Alex to have seen.

He ran out of my room and appeared a few minutes later with a wad of tissue paper and a large, grey bundle of material. He sat himself down next to me again and gently grabbed my wrist.

"I know this isn't great but it'll have to do.." he said as he wiped away the blood and wrapped the tissue around each wrist.

"Here, put this on.." he passed my the grey bundle. I unrolled it to see an almost identical jumper to my own, though it was much larger. Alex Gaskarth just gave me his own Property of AWG jumper? The one I'd seen in all the photos?!

I pulled my own jumper over my head and threw it to the other side of my bed. I quickly glanced over at Alex and saw his eyes wandering over my body, he bit his lip the same as I had that morning.

He looked up and caught my eye.

"Shit.. Sorry.." he muttered and turned around to face the wall. I couldn't help but enjoy the attention. Did he actual like what he saw?

I tried to hide my smirk as I pulled the identical jumper over me. I tapped Alex on the shoulder and pulled him into a tight hug as soon as he turned around. He wrapped his arms around me too as he turned back round to face me.

He pulled away a few seconds later.

"Now what the fuck was that about?" he asked. He looked genuinely concerned.

"I just.." I took a deep breathe, "I hate everything right now. Everything seems to be going downhill. I'm not worth anything. A-and the situation between us. I.. I guess I just always thought if we ever knew each other, we'd be like.. you know.. together. And having to act like I don't feel the way I do.. it's killing me.."

Alex just looked at me, as if he was about to say something, but stopped himself. He slowly leaned towards me, our faces getting closer and closer. He was going to kiss me?! What do I do? How do you KISS Alex Gaskarth?

I closed my eyes, waiting for it to come. Then I felt his lips pressed firmly against my forehead. Relief and disappointment ran through me. Any contact with Alex sent shivers down my spine, but this caused tingly goosebumps to prickle my skin. Though I couldn't help but be a little disappointed it wasn't a proper kiss.

He pulled away from me and smiled. I lay down on the bed, staring at pictures of Jalex on my ceiling. Alex slid down and lay next to me. I glanced over to him and saw his arms were held out and a huge grin was plastered across his face. I smirked and cuddled into him. This was fine, he was just comforting me. There was nothing wrong with hugging a friend, right?

"Alex?" I asked, "Could you do me a huge favour?"

"Sure, anything." he replied with a grin.

"W-would you sing to me?"

There was silence for a moment. Then he started.

"Look at the stars, look how they shine for you, and everything you do. Yeah, they were all yellow."

His voice was so amazing, he could sing anything and it would sound perfect.

"I came along, I wrote a song for you, and all the things you do. And it was called Yellow."

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I would appreciate it if you listened to Yellow by Coldplay now. Cause, you probably already know, but that's the song Alex is singing. I just think you could get a better understanding if you listened. Plus it's a beautiful song. Thank you for reading my fanfic. It truly means the world :) I'll update soon.