You broke me ( matt espinosa fanfic)

CHAPTER 7

MATT'S POV

Dear Matthew,

By the time you are reading this I will be gone.

I know i should of told you face to face that i wanted to leave... but you know me, I'm not that good with words i guess.. I hope you know that i love you, i will alway love you Matt and hopefully you will always love me to, i understand if you don't love me after this though. Look I'm not going to leave without telling you why, i was planning on it but that just not me.. the reason I'm leaving is because i'm scared.. you see, i love you.. a lot but see it scares me because i love you so much because once you get attached to somebody you become venerable and it becomes a weakness and at anytime somebody can come and take it away, take the thing that means the most to you and take it away, so what I'm trying to say here is that you are my weakness Matthew Lee Espinosa. I know this doesn't make any sense but i feel like if i leave the thing most important to me then it wont be taken away from me. I know this is a fucked up reason to leave trust me i know but you fell in love with a fucked up person, i guess that another reason i wanted to leave, i thought it would be less painful if i left before you saw me the way i see myself..

but please promise me one thing,, don't stay mad at me forever, i understand if your mad at me right know hell i'm mad at me right know.

i just want you to know Matt, i will forever love you.i don't know how I'm going to survive without you here everyday, without your smile and your weird jokes and all the times you've made me smile when i didn't want to. The time we've spent in London have been the time of my life.. so thank you for flying away with me. If i had to chose one memory to keep for the rest of my life it would be last night/today. You make my life better Matt you should know that, you deserve someone so much better then me. I will never understand why you feel in love with me but I'm glad you did..

So i guess this is goodbye for now. I love you Matt, it will always been you that has the key to my heart, always

goodbye Matt

yours truly,

Rose.

"But you see Rose, you are infact everything I'm looking for. You will always be the one person i ant live without"

ROSE'S POV

"I'm leaving because I love him to much... And it scares me..." he didn't say anything instead he pulled out is phone and looked something up and handed me the phone.

ROSE AND MATTS POV AT THE SAME TIME (Like saying this together)

" Love isn't practical.

It isn't meant to be easy.It doesn't fall for whomever you'd like. It surfaces neither at most opportune moment nor in the most convenient. It'll pair you whit someone you might never have expected. It'll put you face to face with endless obstacles.But in the end, none of that will matter because it's how you overcome its obstacles that will define your love. it may not be practical, but love is ultimately the best thing that will ever happen to you."

ROSE'S POV

I handed him back is phone and sunk low into my seat. 'This is a mistake' was all i could think. but it also just another obstacles that we will hopefully get past.

MATT'S POV

if this is the definition of love.. i don't think i ever want to be in love again. she's the only one worth suffering for. i will fight for her. if she though she could just walk out of my life she's wrong. i love her to damn much to to just let her go like that.

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(A/N) 2 updates in one day i like it

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