You killed the butterflies I was supposed to get when he kissed me.
You left poison causing them to never come back.
It's painful to watch myself unintentionally change.
I didn't want to change.
But I did.
I changed because all I wanted was for you to love me,
but you didn't.
Because you didn't want to be stuck with a sad girl.
A sad girl who sings about her love
A sad girl that has to be picked up after she tears herself apart
A sad girl who has sad eyes and sad palms and sad collarbones
A sad girl who you were healing
A sad girl who was a lot less sad with you
A sad girl who you left
The sad girl that is fading
The sad girl that misses you
A sad girl who watches you dance to your happy girl's heartbeats like they are the sweetest sounding music
A sad girl who dreams of you every night
You never wanted her
You never wanted me
You never needed me
But I have always needed you
And it still hurts
Because I still love you
Still.
You.
And that's what is disappointing.
