You were so wrapped up in your sadness
In the darkest place
Trapped inside your hurting brain
No room for anyone
I was there for you.
I'd put my hands on your tired face,
I'd open your eyes
I would listen
I knew you
I was a crutch
A life vest
A shoulder to cry on
I was there
I was there over and over.
And you never knew,
Never looked at me like you knew who I was
I thought you would recognize the sadness I carry in my own eyes,
I am just like you
So painfully similar..
I needed someone to ask me
Someone to listen
I needed you
I thought that if we leaned on each other,
We could make each other okay
I was wrong.
You would crumble into dust if I tried to hold onto you
Still,
I was tired of lifting your sullen body,
And I was crushed underneath your bitterness
I thought you were different
I thought you were the only person who could ever understand me
Now, at least I know I am nothing like you
I am hurting
All the time
I bury my sadness now
Underneath the layers and layers of skin I have,
I am just organs and bones
I am frail
Just like you,
I'm just trying to keep myself together
But you are selfish
You take from people
And still
You are only growing weaker
You are sad
Hurting
Broken
Empty
Like me
You are the worst parts of me,
But you are nothing more
I needed you
When I hear your name
I feel an overwhelming sense of disappointment
