POSSESSIVE

4 Regret

Jinyoung's POV

I'm wrecked.

I'm cheating Youngjae... but I'm powerless to even defend myself from his desire...

Youngjae-ah... I'm sorry, I will not let you go again... I will look for the way to save our love.

You just need to stay with me.

I love you...

I closed my eyes, my tears dropped endlessly, running down to my cheek heavily. Mark's arm still wrapped tightly to my waist. Backhugging me after we had that cursed sex, endlessly sex all night long with countless cum and loud moan. I sniffed. My body is nearly broken, but my heart is already ripped into million pieces. I can't sleep even though my body was exhausted as fuck. I barely can move. My body was aching and sore. I didn't expect this kind of sex that will be our first. He is monster, really a merciless beast alive.

"baby, are you okay?" I can hear his gentle voice as he stirred up and flipped me to face him. I'm stiffened; I can't manage to say a word. I looked everywhere but him.

"Jinyoung-ah, I think I'll postpone our plan for today, I know you can't even go to college." He caressed my cheeks, wiped my tears away as he cupped my face and gave me a brief peck to my lips. I didn't care at all. "baby? Say a word please." He pleaded. His soft voice doesn't suit him at all after what had he done last night to me.

"Mark..."

"hmm?" he looked up to me and beamed a smile. Fuck that disgusting smile!

"I love Youngjae."

Silence... his smile faded...

"Mark..."

"hmm?" he hummed again, with blank face.

"send me home please..."

"why?" he asked. "I can take care of you here. I can treat you like a princess every day. Can't you stay?"his pained expression showed. I almost forget that he is not human, he is a cruel monster.

"I can be your sex toy as you want, but I cannot act to be your lover. I don't love you mark." I paused, my vision become blurry due to my tears. "how can I stay with someone whom I hate? What I'm supposed to do Mark?" I said with weak voice.

Silence... I can see tears threatened to split but he managed to turn his gaze away from me. Then, he got up and took his pajama to be worn on me, and then he wore his short and sleeveless t-shirt. I let him be because I'm too weak to get my ass up. After that, he carried me in bridal way, I clung my hands to his neck, buried my head to his crook and he headed to my flat. He carried me towards my room. I shocked to see Youngjae curled in my bed, the same state as last night with my blanket wrapped his naked body. Mark hesitated to put me down to the bed, but I demanded him to put me down. I can see the trace of tears in my boyfriend's cheek. I brought him closer to me without waking him up, letting him snuggled to me. I ignored Mark who reluctantly got out from my room, closing my door slowly.

After few minutes, Youngjae stirred up and little bit shocked to find me spooning him in our bed.

"h-hyung..."

"stay still, Youngjae-ah..." I tightened my embrace, drew him closer to leave no space between us. "don't ask question...just...believe me that I love you so much baby."

"hyung...I ... I'm sorry...." He said sadly.

"you don't need to be sorry Youngjae-ah." I looked at flipped him to face me until our face was only few centimeters away. "the one who should be sorry is me. How can I suppose to protect you when I can't protect myself."