I was angry with myself. Me? With a crush on Emily. It just didn't work. I thought it was a phase. But no. It most definitely wasn't "just a phase". I thought it over, thinking up scenarios in my head. Like, what would happen if I told someone.. I knew that there were a lot of homophobic people at my school... things could turn to custard if it got out...
Shit.
What on earth am I going to do?
I could... no. That's not good. I couldn't tell Emily. That wasn't an option... yet.
Suddenly my phone vibrated in my pocket.. It was Emily.
"heyhey x do u lyk any1?"
Great. Perfect timing Em. NOT.
"uh. hey.. possibly"
"WHO!?"
"..........................................someone"
"WHOO!? plz tel me! u can trust me!"
"i no i can.. gtg"
Just avoiding conversations, like usual.
My tummy grumbled. I had forgotten to eat all day because I was to busy thinking. I walked into the kitchen. Mum had been baking. She better not have made -- Oh great. Organic oat cookies. I dug around for something else, finally settling with a banana. I flicked on the TV and switched to channel 1. There was a program on about gay, bi and lesbian people. I watched it, to see if I could learn anything.
The host said at the end of the program, "Remember, if you are a gay, bi-sexual or a lesbian, it is ok. There is nothing wrong with you. Don't listen to what other people say about your sexuality. You are who you are and people should accept you. If they don't, they're not worth your friendship".
Wow. Thanks to the TV host, I decided something.
Tomorrow at school, I was going to tell Emily.
