I thought to myself, I won't mention my weird feelings to anyone at the moment. I'll be happy for Emily. I will.
The next day at school, I ran up to Emily and gave her a hug. "So you go out with Luke huh? Got anything special planned?" I said to her, with a small ache in my chest.
"Yeah! We're going to the movies on Saturday! Ahhh! I'm so excited! We might even hold hands!" Emily replied with a squeal, "Are you happy for me Lana?"
"Ye..yeah.. course I am!" I stuttered. The bell went, "I'll see you in math".
I hurried off. Why was I acting like this! I had never had feelings like this before. Although I didn't know it at the time, this feeling... was one of the biggest mistakes so far in my life...
Emily:
I remember, my first date with Luke so well. I miss him so much. It was the first Saturday of August and I was going to the movies with Luke. We had been dating for a week at the time and everything was going well. Anyway, we walked into the cinema and we were holding hands. I made a mental note to myself saying that I need to tell Lana about this. I remember Lana was acting very strange since me and Luke started dating. It was bugging me. I didn't know what could be wrong.
Our date went great and at the end, Luke dropped me off at my doorstep. "Text me later, kay?" He said to me. He kissed me. Full on the lips. It was the happiest moment of my life. I rushed inside smiling and speechless. Grabbing my phone I texted Lana.
'OMG! LUKE KISSED ME! :D'
She didn't reply for a while but when she did, all she said was, 'Cool :)'
This wasn't like Lana. She was usually always excited when something amazing happened to me but it didn't seem like she was. I knew then, that something was defiantly up.
Lana:
I got a text on the night of Emily's date which said, 'OMG! LUKE KISSED ME! :D'
I couldn't think of what to say for a while. All I could think to reply to her was, 'Cool :)'.
To be honest, I felt like I was gonna puke. I had what felt like butterflies in my stomach. I knew then, that I might have feelings for Emily. But I pushed those thoughts away. No. I couldn't be lesbian. Not me. Not Lana. My feelings, for the moment, were ignored.
I didn't know what to do. I couldn't carry on like this.. feeling like this.. especially when they were for my best friend.
After thinking for ages, I knew what I had to do. I had to get a boyfriend.
