Enemy within

{Chapter 8}

Kensi's POV

"Special Agent Blye," the board of directors said interrupting my thoughts, I blinked rapidly and nodded my head "What happened after Mr Vasiliev left you unconscious?" they asked me, tears formed in my eyes as I thought back to two months ago and that fateful morning, I let out a quiet sigh "I don't remember what happened after that," I replied, slowly tipping my head "Agent Blye, two Russian heirs are dead and an agent is in the intensive care unit with permanent brain injury! Now what happened after you were knocked unconscious?"

"I'm telling you... I don't remember," I said raising my voice slightly.

"You and LAPD detective Martin Deeks are both professionally trained individuals, why did neither of you have your guns on you and how did neither of you manage to disarm him?"

"He caught us off guard whilst we were packing to come home after we believed we found the terrorists," I replied sternly "We thought the mission was over, so we got sloppy," I admitted as the board collected the papers on their maple wooden desk and placed them into files they reluctantly dismissed me. After I left I ran down the halls and entered the first bathroom I saw, locking the door behind me. I gripped the edges of the porcelain sink seething heavily as the tears rolled down my face.

*Flashback*

My vision was blurry as I lay bleeding on the cold tiled floor, I attempted to pull myself up, but my arms were shaky. I ignored the pain and the lack of feeling in my legs and crawled to the cupboard and quietly opened it. I grabbed the gun and slowly shuffled to the hallway and peaked to see where Anton was. When I couldn't see him I slowly made my way to the lounge room where Deeks lay still unconscious. 'Why hadn't he come around, yet' suddenly, I heard a chair scuff along the floor behind me I quickly turned around and without thinking I fired my gun. When my vision finally focused I saw Dominika lying on the floor with a bullet hole in her forehead "What did you do?" Anton screamed as he ran towards his dead fiancée. He looked at me furiously with tears streaming down his face "I'm sorry Anton, I thought she was you," Anton faced Dominika again and kissed her forehead, an unsettling feeling set in the pit of my stomach as he slowly stood up and turned to face me. "You bitch... you killed my fiancée... I will KILL you!" he yelled as he ran towards me and instinctively I fired my gun and watched as the life drained from Anton's body as he fell to the floor. *End flashback*

Anger filled throughout me as I thought back to what happened, I couldn't control my anger anymore I needed to release my anger, my grip on the sink tightened so much that I could feel the skin on my knuckles tearing, I let out a scream and then without thinking I punched the mirror "Agh," I cried wincing at the pain in my knuckles.

After a few minutes I composed myself and left the bathroom racing out of the building and to the only person that could save me from this pain and anger. I needed to see Deeks.