Genre: Angst
I walked through the door with you, the air was cold,
But something 'bout it felt like home somehow and I
Left my scarf there at your sister's house,
And you still got it in your drawer even now.
"Your things are on my room upstairs. I'll get it." Your hands grasps his, tightly. Somehow, you were on his sister's house. He was staying at his sister's house since he decided to part from his parents to set foot in Seoul to chase his dreams. The last time you were here everything feels warm but this time it was cold, colder than winter. The breeze from outside wasn't helping and more to the air this man in front of you was emitting, somehow it made you sick. You were longing, you want his touch, his embrace, his kisses but you know that feeling won't linger on you anymore yet still being here in his cold territory still felt like home.
"No it's okay. I'll get it just this once." Namjoon glanced at you in seconds, but it wasn't his normal loving look like the other days. It's more like, judging you. Before he can even speak you muttered with a mouth-quivering 'please' and with that he pried his hands off of you as he gestured you to go upstairs. Slowly, you took light steps to the stairs taking in every walls, furnitures and stuffs in the house guessing that this would be the last time you'll ever step in here.
A creaking sound was made when you opened his room's door. Every single thing was still right there, nothing has changed. The way his Ryan stuff toys are all stuffed on his bed. You remember the times that you cuddled with them when Namjoon wasn't home yet. The way his jacket was hanging on the edge of the bed because he always use it. There are a lot of things that didn't change except the fact that the pictures that were hanging on the wall was now replaced by some sceneries, before it was your picture or the two of you but now it wasn't. Your clothes, toothbrush, shoes and everything you owned was now stuffed in your bag just the way he said. You figured it out when you checked every single corner.
But there was one thing the caught your eyes sending you in deep thoughts your scarf was neatly folded in his drawer. Your favorite scarf was untouched and it remained in his belongings, that scarf that you forget on that particular cold winter night. Just as in time Namjoon bust in the room "Did you get all of your things?" You nodded, your mouth opened then close several times wanting to ask about the scarf but you couldn't bring it up so in the end you gave up and pick the bags filled with your things.
Oh, your sweet disposition and my wide-eyed gaze.
We're singing in the car, getting lost upstate.
The Autumn leaves falling down like pieces into place,
And I can picture it after all these days.
Walking out from his gates. You felt your eyes stinging, the tears were finally falling down from your eyes, it's never ending. Rekindling all those gleeful moments you had with the man whom you loved sent you into even a crying mess. You stop on the sidewalk of the empty street, your body had no strength with these things that's happening. Why does it have to end up with this? Pictures of your moments together starts to flash on your mind.
"Y/N baby this reminds me of you on that Halloween day." Looking at the thing he was pointing at, you can see it was a clown and your face suddenly went to 'are you seriously bringing that up' face from the happy bunny face. "What, I just can't help but to remember it." He asked as he saw the look painted at your face. "Excuse me mister but you know how I hate clowns but still you decided to use that to scare me and I hate you for that." You stated crossing your arms and he giggled as he cutely hops to you as he took you in his warm embrace and it always calms you down. Every single time you were furious about something or you were nervous, anxious or anything you don't want to feel just an embrace from him and all of it goes away.
