Can't Lose You {Frerard}

Hospitals Suck

"This is the most depressing place that I've ever been" I whispered to Mikey as we all sat in the waiting room. He knew Lindsey but not as well as I did. I was so worried that she was gone. I wreaked of alcohol, cigarettes, and cleaning solution. After shattering everything I owned I had to clean it, and then I drunk a few beers along with a lot of cigarettes. Before I went to the hospital I needed to calm myself down so I didn't concern the nurses or Lindsey. I listened to the only record I had left that wasn't completely shattered. A Led Zeppelin record that I couldn't make out he name of because the name was scratched off. I heard Stairway to Heaven ease off out of the record player. The chords were so calm. I sang along lightly. "It makes me wonder..." I sat alone on the couch. After the song ended I grabbed my things and drove to the hospital.

I arrived and they said she was still not awake, but she was going to be okay. She had only taken a few minor painkillers. They said she had a minor concussion from hitting her head on the bathroom sink while getting the pills. They said she had a note in her pocket. The nurse gently put it in my shaking hands and I read it.

I know I'll miss you Frank. And I want you to know there is nothing you couldve done. Nothing. You helped me. Thank you.
Don't cry over me. I am nothing more than a beating heart, that is not beating anymore.
Forget about me. Move on. I love you, Frank.

I put my hand over my mouth and gently folded the paper, and stuck it in my back pocket. I saw Julie burst through the doors with Gerard and Mikey trailing behind her. They weren't very phased but she was crying and running. She burst through the door and cupped Lindsey's face in her hands. I scowled at her and she stared at me for a long time. I finally couldn't stand her face anymore and walked out of the room.  Mikey and Gerard we're sitting in the waiting room conversating over a magazine. I sat down in front of them and stared for a while. "Hi Frank" Gerard choked out. "Hello" I quietly responded. Mikey came to sit beside me and Gerard followed. I looked over at Gerard and noticed something I've never realized before.

He was so pretty. His eyeliner was smudged and his hair was oily but he looked perfectly imperfect. He smiled and his small teeth showed. His nose crinkled up. He would stare back at me every now and then. I would smile back. I don't know how. But I was starting to fall for him.

Falling fast.

And if I only knew that he was standing perfectly still.