Why Him? (BILL SKARSGÅRD/ ROMAN GODFREY)

Secretly The Third Wheel

I open the front door further and motion him to come in so we can walk in together, we walk down the hallway and in the dining room where Roman and mother were waiting.

I look and see Roman's eyes on Logan watching his every move, his gaze moves onto me and his jaw clenches as he notices the beautiful rose in my hand.

"Hi I'm Logan nice to meet you" He says, taking his hand out for mother to shake it.

She smiles and takes his hand, whilst Roman stands there quietly. Logan goes to take his hand and Roman hesitated to take his hand but he finally nodded and shook it anyways.  

You sure you guys okay to come with us?" Mother asks, her gaze focusing on Logan.

"Yeah I don't mind, I'd like to get to know more Lily and the rest of her family" He said, I almost choked on air like we are definitely not a family, at all.

I couldn't help it, I let out an awkward chuckle and they all turn their heads to me,
"It's just me and mother, Logan" I say.

"Lily" Mother warns.

"What she means to say, is Roman isn't officially in the family" She pauses. "Yet" She continues.

Roman leans closer to mother and wraps his arms around her waist, I look and see how tall he is compared to her and I regretfully say how much I miss it, I miss how his hands felt when they were on me. I hate how much I miss him and how distant we have to be, I hate how selfish I am.

"Lets start going, it's getting late guys" Mother says, Roman nods in response. Several minutes later we all head out front, we decided we'll go in seperate cars incase Logan and I want to leave and I think that is a smart idea seeing Roman with mother makes me feel kinda sick.

Logan and I both sat in the front, after waiting for Roman and mother to speed off first we drove off to stay behind.

"Don't you like Roman?" Logan asks out of nowhere, making me jump.

"He's alright, why?" I look over at him, his eyes fixated on the road in front of us.

"I don't know I just felt like uh- a weird tension with yous" He said, my stomach roars with butterflies. I just hope he doesn't think something might be up, I really don't want to ruin things with him.

"Nah it's all cool" I awkwardly chuckle, mentally slapping myself.

Minutes later we see Roman's red convertible pull up in front of a fancy restaurant and bar, I mentally roll my eyes at the scenery in front of us.

We get out and make our way to the front, a waiter takes us to our table. We all sit down, Logan and I sit next to each other with mother and Roman across the table. Unfortunately Roman currently sits right in front of me, I'm gonna try my best and ignore him.

"Do you have a cigarette?" I lean in closer to Logan to ask him.

"Do you smoke?" He whispers, I look over to mother and Roman and they are both watching us.

Unfortunately mother heard and she looked over to me with anger in her eyes, "Lily, you smoke?" She raises her voice.

"No" I roll my eyes, I heard a sigh of relief escape from her lips.