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I made my way to my bed literally jumping on it, I bury my face in the pillows grabbing onto it tightly. I hear footsteps and I groan to know that Roman is coming in here to make things worse, why can't he just leave me alone.
"The idea of being soft over someone scares me" I look up at him, my eyebrows scrunch with confusion.
"What?" I ask, I watch as he walks closer to me.
"Alcohol has always been an issue of mine" He continues, he makes his way sitting at the end of my bed.
"I never admit shit as it was never my thing" He pauses taking a deep breath. "but sometimes if you admit things to the right person then you don't regret it at all" He mumbles, he leans back his legs sprawled out on the bed. He takes out his packet of cigarettes sticking one in his mouth, lighting it up straight away before blowing out clouds of smoke.
"So I'll just admit this, it can get so fucking lonely out here" He closes his eyes, breathing in the cigarette and blowing more puffs.
"I never got along with my mother, she was a slut" He continues, I watch as he talks about her there was so much hatred. I would want to know what happened but I'm afraid to ask.
"It's okay Roman, you have us" I say as I move closer to him trying to comfort him but he chuckles in response.
"I didn't come here for pity, I'm just trying to tell you about me" He shrugs.
"Well just remember that mother loves you" I choke, I can see his green orbs stare in mine.
"I have an ugliness that's impossible to love" He mumbles to himself, like he didn't want me to hear it but I heard it all.
"What do you mean?" I ask him but he shakes his head in response and before I know it he's out the door. I thought fuck it and I walk out and down the stairs, my eyes scan the room and I see him on the couch with a cigarette still in his hand, he rolls his eyes when he sees me but I don't care.
"Why did you say that?" I pause. "I heard you Roman" I sigh, crossing my arms.
"I don't want to talk about it" He looks at me unamused.
"Well I do" I mumble, making my way to the couch next to him.
"Well I don't care" He mocks me, turning his head to face the tv.
"Guys I bought pizza" We heard mother say as he entered through the front door.
"What took so long?" I ask, sitting my self at the dinner table.
"The pizzeria was very busy, but it's worth it trust me" Mother playfully licks her lips.
We all sat at the table, I place a slice of pizza in my plate and look at Roman and mother the silence fills the room making me feel uncomfortable.
"Do you like it honey?" Mother looks at Roman, he hesitantly nods in response she looks down at her plate and sighs.
"Darling" Roman says, we both impatiently wait to see what he's gonna say.
"I'm taking you out tomorrow, you have to dress up nice" He continues mother just nods in response, my eyebrows scrunch with confusion to how random he is.
"I better get going, see you tomorrow" He kisses mother on the head before exiting the room, completely avoiding my gaze.
The rest of the night went rather slowly, Roman's been acting weird and my curiosity is killing me. Like why come up to my room, tell me your life story then avoid me for the rest of the night. No matter what he told me it wasn't enough, there is still a story to be told and I need to find out what it is.
// This chapter sucked sorryyy, next one will be better hopefully x
