My Other Side

XXLIV:

Silence;

A word that was foreign to me,

I never liked it,

But I never knew why,

Maybe I hated it

Because of my ignorance toward this word,

When actually this word was a whole other world.

Yes, silence is a whole other world.

I discovered it when I found myself liking silence,

Not that something happened,

Or someone described how beautiful silence is,

And I guess even if someone did that

I wouldn't be aware of how many beautiful things silence held;

I wouldn't even believe,

Which is typical from a loud girl.

I enjoyed silence when suddenly

I found myself not talking,

Just silent with no word out of my mouth,

The teacher's voice was just a mere background

While my mind was as if it was shut down,

As all my classmates' voices

Only me admiring how

Silence is beautiful

And that words were actually useless,

But most importantly hurtful.

After days of enjoying silence,

Or better say my silence

Where there is only me and myself,

I recalled my very own idea about silence,

As I found silence as the coldest way to express

Words like: "I don't need any words out of your mouths"

Or "I am better like this, in my silence"

Or any other hurtful words

But little did I know

About how miraculous silence could be.

Still, a little of curiosity is wandering at the back of my head,

How come, me,

The girl whose energy is overloaded,

Enjoyed silence, with no particular reason,

Maybe I got mature ?

But the one can not get mature overnight,

Between a dusk and down..

The sudden change of my personality

Made me question,

How on earth did my life turned up side down in a month ?

A simple answer,

It just did.

And the sudden change of my personality ?

It just did,

I just changed.

No particular answer of my question,

As well as no particular reason for what has, will or still happening in my life,

And that it is simply,

Dear readers,

'Fate'...