Best Mistake | Micci

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MICHELLE

I actually don't know what to do with my life anymore. Wala na akong maisip na paraan kung paano ko sasabihin kay Joshua. Nai-imagine ko palang na umiiyak siya sa harap ko parang hindi ko na kaya.

Last night, I cried myself to sleep. Buti nalang sanay na akong umiyak ng tahimik dahil kung hindi, maririnig ako ng teammates ko - at isa iyon sa iniiwasan ko. I don't want them to be buried with my own personal problems, I don't want them to pity me.

I'm a strong independent small bean.

My phone vibrated at agad ko chineck kung sino ang nagtext. It was Mom. I sighed, alam ko na kung ano ang itetext niya.

Mommy:
We have an appointment today with our family doctor, Michelle. Nakapagpaalam ka na ba kay Coach?

I stared at my phone for awhile and bit my lower lip.

Me:
Yup. Hindi siya pumayag Mommy at isa pa, I don't feel like going to our doctor today. Kayo nalang po muna nila Ate Cams and Mico.

I lied, the truth is hindi naman talaga ako nagpaalam kay coach. I really don't like going to hospitals and doctors - it makes me feel anxious and frustrated.

Mommy:
Michelle, last month ka pa hindi pumupunta sa doctor mo. Gusto mo ba ako ang magkausap kay Coach? I can pick you up today.

Me:
Mom. I'm fine. Wala naman nagbabago eh. The results in the laboratories are always the same. I also have training today. Remember malapit na championship game po namin.

Mommy:
Okay fine Michelle. Please update me if something went wrong ok? Mag-iingat ka Michelle. Drink water and take enough rest. Love you nak.

Me:
Yes po. Love you mom.

I stared at my own reflection in the mirror. Ilang linggo na din ako umiiyak dahil kay Josh. Kapag mas lalo ko pang pinatagal — mas lalo pa akong mahihirapan gawin lahat ng plano ko.

It's 11:30 am and almost all of my teammates are already out dahil may mg pasok pa sila. I guess yung iba tulog pa or nasa kwarto. I did all my morning routines and then, umalis na ako sa dorm. I need to occupy my mind to stop myself from overthinking.

"Hi Michelle!" nagulat naman ako ng biglang sumulpot si Brent sa harapan ko. He's alone.

"Hi Brent." I uttered. "Sabay na ako sayo. Sa Henry Sy ka din ba?" He asked and I nod in agreement.

"You look pale. Okay ka lang ba?" Brent ask out of nowhere. Bigla naman akong naging conscious sa itsura ko. Am I that haggard? I didn't bother putting some makeups today dahil tinatamad ako.

"Yup. I'm fine. Hindi lang ako nakapag-makeup kaya halata yung pagka-pale ko." I said while gripping my hand to my books.

I bit my lower lip dahil bigla akong nahilo. I stopped from walking and Brent noticed kaya medyo nataranta siya.

"Uy hala ka na! — Hala paano ba — Michelle!" Brent shouted and the next thing I knew everything went black.

BRENT

(first time to OMG)

I was walking alone papunta sa Henry Sy building noong nakita ko si Michelle naglalakad mag-isa. I'm observing her while she's walking at napapansin kong namumutla siya.