About my promise to keep you updated, I'm sorry. I wasn't able to write about this before, because it hurt too much and I didn't feel strong enough to write about it. Right now, I'm having a personal crisis. It sucks ! But, I'm making my way through. Now I'm at a point, where writing is no torture anymore but is helping me in my process of dealing with it.
This August (2017), my boyfriend was diagnosed with cancer. It was a shock, for him, for me, the whole family and friends. His cancer was quite an aggressive one. Luckily, the treatment could start as soon as possible. So far, he's showing a good response to the chemotherapy. According to forecasts he's having good healing prospects and the last chemotherapy is set for January 2018.
I've never imagined, that I'd be so engaged in this whole process as a worried girlfriend who wants to be there for her boyfriend. I experienced some severe struggle at work. I couldn't concentrate on what I was doing. Unconsciously, I tried to get along with the new situation I was smashed into. In the end I realized, I couldn't show my whole potential and after groundbreaking discussions I made the decision for taking a timeout.
Day by day I'm trying to cope with my situation. It's a lot of trying, fighting and accepting. Every day is a new challenge. The one's who read chapter 3 might remember that I wrote about a dad, who was close to tears when he had to leave his little son to the surgeons. Now I can understand a bit how he must have felt at that moment, because I know what I'm feeling now. It's sometimes just horrible. To be helpless and dependable of other people, hoping that they make a good job.
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Becoming a nurse
Short StoryThis is a story collection out of the daily life of a Swiss nursing student. The aim is to share experiences with others. It may be a base for medical discussion. Note: It doesn't matter where you start. The stories are all independent.
