i wanted to post a new chapter today but i haven't been able to stop crying after i heard the news which is why i'm only now posting this chapter
i fell in love with shinee after i noticed jonghyun in the first music video i watched. i was drawn to his beauty and talent, and i loved him. shinee was the group that got me into kpop, and got me back into it a year later when i fell out of love with it
i'm still trying to comprehend the fact he's actually gone, and at such a young age too, he was battling something so strong and overwhelming
i hope he's happier where he is now- away from everyone and everything that ever hurt him. i truly love him to pieces, and i still want him to wake up from his nightmare
but i know he won't wake up and it hurts, it hurts real fucking bad. i haven't been able to bring myself to do anything- i have about 3 essay's due this week and i was supposed to work on them today with my friends but i had to cancel because i was crying so hard
please tell the idol's you love and appreciate that you do love them- because sometimes the hate and whatever they could be dealing with could get too much, and they could end up how jonghyun ended up
i will forever love and miss him so much, rest in peace my beautiful angel <3
if anybody is going through the same things as jonghyun, or similar things, don't be afraid to dm me on instagram (taehyungjjk) or on here. i want to help as many as you as possible. depression isn't a nice thing to deal with even with people around you- i couldn't imagine dealing with it alone. please talk to me if you need to guys, i want to help :)
update
i should be posting tomorrow, depends on how i feel
i love you all, thank you for being patient with me <3
