I might say yes when you ask if I'm fine
But truly I'm not
Yes, you hurt me
Yes, you're bothering me
Yes, you're getting on my nerves
But I can't say that
I can't speak my mind
It doesn't work like that
Saying " yeah, I'm fine " is easier that saying no
No is a word I must not say
At least that's what I always knew was right
Why let someone inside the barrier I made ?
The barrier is meant to be there
So that tears don't fall and emotions don't come out of my mouth
I must say " I'm fine "
Or else
Or else I'll have to explain
And I can't explain feelings
When I never knew I really had them
Down deep
Down deep into the soul I only shared with myself
Down deep the blood my brain is drowning in
Down deep my buckets of tears
Down deep into the thoughts that are flooding my brain
" Yeah I'm fine "
But I am not fine
I am clearly not
I am so stressed I can't catch a breath
I'm so sad I'll start crying bloody tears
It's just easier to make you think that I'm fine
It's just easier to block people out
It's just easier to hide
It's just easier to lie
Than to deal with feelings
I barely have control of
It's just easier to make people assume I'm fine
Because lies are better than tears, questions and regret anyways
If you ask me if I'm fine
I will say yes
But that doesn't mean I'm truly fine
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Broken Girl - Poetry
PoetryPoetry of a girl, The Girl Who Lived and how she became a Broken Girl. These are thoughts I have about being weird, stress, sadness, anger and a lot of other emotions I feel. I had to chose between my heart or my brain and since I'm indecisive, I di...
