Dismal

6; hole

There is something that my life would say
"Empty, numb, soulless."
I have always wanted to have something I can't have,
cause It's something I dont know.

I thought,
I thought that when I finally was able to do things different individual can do, maybe that I can finally understand what's missing;
What that black orb inside me is.

But no, It's just black orb.
Just a dead orb lurking inside my whole system.
All it would ever do is consume me.

Though,
I'm glad I can still reach that small ray of hope
that keeps me thinking that maybe the day will come that this back orb will finally crack and reveal the white pearl inside.