Voices ❀ Joshler

13 | Anxiety .

"You know, i truly love you." Josh said. Tyler smiled and rested his head on josh's shoulder.

"I love you too." Tyler said quietly and pecked josh's jaw.

"Hey guys," Brendon said as he sat next to josh. "So, i heard today's you guy's last day." Brendon said.

"Yeah, we're going to Chicago for a couple days." Tyler smiled at the thought. Josh sighed and smiled.

"Will you be okay with out my and ty?" Josh asked, since Brendon got used to hanging out with them more.

"Yeah, ill be fine. Its just two days anyway" Brendon shrugged.

"Are you guys leaving right now?" Brendon asked.

"Yeah, in about 5 minutes." Josh said as he checked the time. "We still haven't packed so we need to go do that." Josh quietly chuckled.

"Okay, bye guys." Brendon said sadly. He hugged tyler and josh tightly. They group hugged for a couple minutes before letting go.

"Bye brendon. We'll call you everyday and check up on you." Josh said, wiping away Brendon's tear.

"Alright bye, " brendon sniffed. They waved goodbye to Brendon and grabbed their bags before walking away.

Tyler shrieked and ran to lauras car. Josh giggled at tylers excitement and followed tyler to the car.

"Hey mom" josh greeted as he sat down in the car.

"Hey kids,  where's Jordan? I thought he was with you guys?" She asked.

"I don't kn- oh there he is!" Josh said as he saw Jordan walking towards the car.
Jordan opened the door and sat down on the passenger seat. He huffed and crossed his arms, glancing out the window.

"You okay, Jordan?" Laura asked.

"Im fine,"he muttered and shook his head. She sighed and started driving to their house.

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Tyler neatly placed his five shirts into his bag, sighing in relief. He zipped up his bag and carried it to josh's. He walked into josh's room and threw his bag down.

"Is it heavy for you?" Josh asked. Tyler nodded and cracked his fingers.
"I'll carry it for you." Josh added as he continued putting his clothes into the bag.

"No,josh. You don't have to. Really, its fine." Tyler protested, even though he did want josh to carry his things for him.

"Im carrying your stuff, like it or not." Josh replied sassily, closing his bag and carrying both of their bags. Tyler blushed and looked down at his feet. He looked back up and noticed Josh was already leaving the house.

He smiled and sped walked outside.
"You know, you didn't have to do that for me." Tyler said, watching josh put the things into the trunk.

"I know, but i wanted to." Josh smiled, opening the dood, gesturing for Tyler to enter. "ladies first." Josh laughed. Tyler scoffed and went in the car.

"im not a lady." Tyler said, glaring at josh who was entering the car.

"Im just joking, baby." Josh laughed and pecked Tyler on the lip, resting his hand on Tyler's knee. "You nervous?" Josh asked, squeezing Tyler's knee with his hand. Tyler nodded and bit his lip.

"Don't be, it'll be fun." Josh said, tyler sighed.

"I know. I'm more excited than nervous though." Tyler said.

"mm" josh hummed. "imma go help my mom really quick" josh mumbled, getting out the car and running to his mom.

tyler took quick short breaths, his anxiety kicking in. why was he getting anxiety? hes going to visit his little sister, there's no need to worry. regardless, tyler was still having anxiety. he was panting, getting a feeling of pressure on his chest , he felt like his heart was about to burst out his chest , his nails digging into his thighs.

"josh, josh" tyler called out. " josh!" he called. josh got in the car, scooting closer to tyler. josh noticed tylers panting and his nails digging into his legs.

"tyler, its okay. its okay." josh spoke softly, pulling Tyler into a hug.

"i know, my-my anxiety is j-just acting up right now." tyler stuttered. josh frowned and pulled tylers arms away from his legs.

"its going to be alright. just breathe, breathe tyler." tyler listened, taking long, slow breaths.

"here, drink." josh said, handing tyler a water bottle. tyler desperately chugging the water. he put the bottle down and sighed.

"thank you."

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i suck at writing, i don't even know why im doing this but oh well .