The Only Half I Need - {Synyster Gates - Book 3} -

Chapter 6

Katie’s POV

Once you got comfortable in your life it is very hard to get yourself back up and moving again. You get used to it. You enjoy it, the peaceful ride. It’s like a relieving moment in a very hectic and hurtful world. In a world where we constantly have to fight for what we want or what we stand for we are looking for the easy ways to get through it. Once we have found them we hardly ever give them up again. They make us feel good and safe, although we know that it’s not right for us to be resting.

But what do you do when you have no strength left to overcome those habits? What if the reasons you had to go on and on were suddenly gone? You lose every ounce of hope and losing hope meant usually giving up.

I had given up. The moment I realized that I was bleeding out and on my way to the afterlife I finally saw a way out. I was actually relieved that finally I had found the easy way, the only real option left in my life. Knowing that it would be over soon I let go of every painful moment, every negative feeling and thought. The only thing left was the love for my friends and my family. And for Brian.

Brian.

Synyster Gates.

This man had me going from the first moment our hands had touched. I had been falling for him every day we had spent together. No one had ever managed to make me feel the way I did when I was with him. The mere thought of him had made my heart race in my chest, had drenched my palms in sweat and had turned my knees into jelly. The happy spark in his eyes whenever he looked at me, the bright smile that was stretched all over his face, the warm bear hugs and sweet kisses; I saw it all. Knowing that I had been blessed to be with such a beautiful soul, no matter how short the time might have been, gave me peace. And I was actually happy for Michelle. Brian was the perfect father for her baby boy.

The darkness had been closing in rather quickly and less painful that I had ever pictured it in my head. I had been ready to let myself fall but I didn’t. Instead I was floating in a vacuum kind of space. I had been sure that this was it. Afterlife. A room full of darkness and silence, nothing there to look forward to. I had been ready to be bored for the rest of my un-existence.

The sudden shot of pain however had caught me by surprise. I had no idea what was going or why I was actually still feeling anything. When that pain from my tummy metastasized into my chest I was growing scared. When I was coughing up blood and nearly choking on it too, I started to panic.

I had been in this pain for what felt like an eternity. I didn’t feel anything else until there was a sudden stop to it. This confused me even more. This afterlife was such a weird place. If I had known I had checked in to something else.

I didn’t know how long I had been in this now soothing and calm place. It just felt amazing how my body got cleansed of all the bad things until nothing but fading memories were left. When I finally felt something tug at those invisible strings that were attached to my body I had no idea why I had come here in the first place.

I felt myself being lifted up. First slowly and gently but then it turned into a real rush. I could see something bright coming towards me and I braced myself for the crushing impact. An impact that never happened.

When I opened my eyes I had to close them again. Everything was so bright. The fluorescence didn’t work well with the white walls and the sun shining through the window was adding to the brightness in the room. I had spent so much time in the dark that light was really uncomfortable.

The next thing I noticed was some weird noises. Steady beeping, some kind of rustling and clicking reached my ears. They were so loud; my head was starting to hurt even more. I opened my eyes again but this time I was more careful. I was blinking a lot to help my eyes get used to the light. However, I was already starting to notice details of the room I was in. Pictures of flowers hang on the wall, the curtains were light blue just like the blanket that was draped over my body and there was a huge plant in the corner next to the window.