The Only Half I Need - {Synyster Gates - Book 3} -

Chapter 12

Brian’s POV

Having Katie right here in front of me was such a miracle. I gently caressed her cheeks with my thumbs and smiled at her with teary eyes.

“You’re back. You’re really back.” I said with my voice shaking. Her hands ran down my arms and I had a hard time holding back a sigh. Feeling her soft touch was such a delight after what felt like ages. When her hands reached my wrists I took them and covered them in kisses, hoping to warm them up a bit.

“Brian …” Katie said softly but I was so overwhelmed by my feelings for her that I cupped her cheek once more.

“Shhhh I’m right here. I’ll never leave you ever again.” I said and gently pulled her into a deep kiss. Her lips were a bit too dry but nevertheless the sweetest thing I ever tasted. I felt like I had been starving for a very long time. She hesitated at first but my heart skipped a beat when she kissed me back ever so softly. God, I needed her so much. My light, my angel, my world.

“Brian, I’m so sorry …” She whispered against my lips but I cut her off again. I didn’t want her to apologize for anything. All this mess was my fault anyways.

“Don’t be, baby, I’m the one to blame.” I said softly and pecked her lips over and over again. My hands, covered by her small ones, were cupping her cheeks.

“No, Brian, you don’t understand.” That’s when she pulled back and looked at me with her eyes filled with an endless pain and sadness that it broke my heart all over again.

“What is it baby girl?” I asked with a sad frown on my face. What happened to my baby when she was overseas?

“I’m so sorry but I can’t …” She started.

“You can’t what? Talk to me? Of course you can, baby. You can tell me anything. I …” That’s when she grabbed my wrists and with a desperate look in her eyes she shook my arms in frustration.

“I can’t remember you.” She said and tears started to roll down her cheeks. I looked at her in confusion.

“What?” I heard myself ask. I was frozen in shock and stared down at her but with every word coming from her mouth it felt like she was stabbing my heart with a blunt knife. Katie stepped away from me and wiped her tears but once she let go of my hands I felt so lonely again.

“I can’t remember anything.” She said, “I know what happened, Jeremy had explained everything to me but …” That’s when my heart nearly stopped.
“Jeremy? What has this bastard to do with all this?” I pressed through gritted teeth and clenched my fists to prevent them from shaking.

“I don’t know. When I woke up he was there, and Ivan too. I … I don’t know what’s right or wrong. Who is real and who is taking advantage of me. I just know that I dreamed about you. I saw you and I felt you … in my heart. Brian, I had to come and find you and now that you are here … god, this headache is killing me.” She pressed her palms against her temples and squeezed her eyes shut. Forgetting this asshole Jeremy for a minute I took a step towards her; just in time. Katie stumbled backwards and nearly fell but I managed to catch her. I picked her up bridal style and she rested her head against my shoulder. She was as light as a feather.

“Oh baby, what happened to you?” I mumbled and kissed the top of her head gently. I decided to take her to the people I trusted most instead of carrying her all the way to my car. The whole gang was standing outside the ice cream parlor. They were all in shock: Val was covering her mouth and had difficulties holding back her tears. Matt had a confused River on his arm and pulled his wife close. Zacky was shaking and Allie hugged his tattooed arm tightly.