The Only Half I Need - {Synyster Gates - Book 3} -

Chapter 10

Katie’s POV

What the actual fuck was that?

I pulled my hand out of my soaked panties and sat up. My heart was racing in my chest, like in my dream, and shivers of pleasure shook my body.

It was freaking me out, to be honest. This guy in my dream, he was more a stranger than Jeremy was but then again, I felt like I was belonging to him, that something more connected us. Groaning I plopped back into the pillows and grabbed one to cover my face with. This dream just showed that my head couldn’t keep up with my body.

With a heavy sigh I felt for the phone next to me and switched it off. I slowly pulled the pillow off my face and stared at Jeremy’s phone. It made me wonder where my own stuff was. According to Jeremy, we had been on our way to Europe for a tour when I got shot, so I must have had my bag and a suitcase with me.

With a frown on my face I got up and walked up to the bedroom door. My soaked panties felt weird between my legs and it reminded me once again of this nice but sort of disturbing dream. Just thinking of the stranger’s hands all over my body made me go crazy for him all over again.

Shaking my head to get rid of the pictures in my head I opened the door, only to find the hotel room empty. My eyebrows arched up in wonderment but at least I hadn’t had to explain my funny way of walking. I wobbled up to our bags and looked for something to wear. I found a shirt, jeans and underwear that was clearly mine and hurried to the bathroom.

Of course my mind wouldn’t stop running around in circles while I took a shower. It seemed like those scattered puzzle pieces were coming together slowly but surely, giving me a queasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. Something about this whole situation didn’t feel right but I couldn’t put my finger on it. I liked Jeremy a lot; he was my savior after all. Not to mention Ivan. Both of them have been wonderful friends and had been with me from the beginning. But then again, if I was such a nice person as they made me believe I was, why hadn’t any of my friends come to visit me? I have spent four months in one and the same building and no one else but Jeremy and Ivan had cared to check on me. Besides that, Jeremy has never really talked about my friends and how they were. Yes, I knew about Elly and my family back in Germany but this situation still felt pretty strange.

With a light headache I stepped out of the shower cabin and shivered. My skin, covered in goose bumps now, was steaming in the cold air of the bathroom. I didn’t care to wrap myself in one of the fluffy towels. Instead I stepped in front of the sink. In the huge mirror above it I saw a skinny girl with grey-blue eyes that looked back at me in frustration. Water dripped down her wet red hair and ran down her bare back – it has gotten pretty long in the last few months. Her skin was pale as the full moon and it was covered in silver and pink scars. I watched her lifting her right hand to trace the still swollen scar above her left breast.

“… I love you, Katie. I love you so much. Please … stay. We’ll work it out. Together.” The guy from my dream was stumbling over his words, he was talking so fast. His eyes looked desperately into mine, begging me to stay. Funny thing, the more scared he got the calmer I got. I cupped his cheek and looked him deep in the eyes.

“I can’t stay, Brian. Moving in with you was a mistake and …”
“No!” He cut me off. “It wasn’t. I swear! I need you, Katie. Please!” Brian grabbed my hand and held it tightly against his cheek.

“We just went through every phase of a relationship, in a matter of three months. That’s not normal.” I said softly, my thumb caressing his cheek.