heartstrings - nalu oneshots

hey

[unedited] 
[PGSEA]
[this is a temporary title until i can think of a better one :) - pauline] 

kill me. 
kill me. 
kill me, right fucking now. 

have you ever felt the sharp pain you feel or the sinking drop of the heart when you see the person you thought you loved, ..kissing another girl? 

cheating? having an affair? 

that's how i feel. 

why didn't i just believe him? why didn't i just believe, natsu? if i did then i wouldn't be in this situation. i wouldn't have dated this piece of cheating ass cheeks. 

stupid. 
stupid. 
stupid girl. 

" lucy? it's― " 

" not what it looks like? " 

i stood there with a straight face, teeth clenched. he didn't say anything back. 

so he admits it. 

i'm trying so hard to keep these tears from falling. it hurts so bad.

" try that bullshit on me and a fist isn't the only thing that will be coming your way. " 

his mouth glued shut. 

" go on, say it. say that, 'you're sorry'. that you didn't mean for this to happen. i put three years into this relationship. 

why couldn't you do the same?

why did you have to go behind my back and go date some other chick?

especially when it's lisanna.

it would've hurt less than breaking up with me and THEN going to her. but i would've NEVER  thought that you would do this. to me. and that's what i HATE. i hate that i can think something so right but it comes out so very wrong. well, guess what, dan straight. you broke me. you broke another girl. go and add it to you're list of girls you fucked. " 

the tears spilled the minute i spoke. why didn't i see it? 

if you're asking does lisanna know? no. she doesn't 

why? how? because she didn't see me looking around the corner. she left. and when she left i came in. she doesn't know a shred of this toxic relationship. 

i've been broken so many times. i shouldn't even be feeling anything anymore, but yet it feels like a bunch of needles stabbing at my heart on repeat every time. why did it have to be this way? why did this society let the cheating be okay and be a sickening trend?

because it shouldn't. 

with a turn of my heel, i walked away. and as i did the last bell for dismissal rung. and i was now met with a stampede of freshman, sophomores, juniors, and seniors.  i sped right past them reaching my goal getting out the double doors and running the hell home. my tears dried up. my eyes were puffy, my cheeks were rose pink and my nose looked like rudolph in the spring. 

i heard someone call out to me. but it was faint. there was a sharp ringing in my ears. the blood circulating. 

" luce! hey, luce! ...luce? hey, what's wrong? " 

i felt a hand graze my arm and unconscionably make me turn. i was met by the broad chest of my best friend of 16 years, since birth. i had look up, straight up, to be able to see him. his eyes widened into saucers. 

" hey, what's wrong? why are you crying? " he gently holds my arms leaning in closer to get a better look at me. 

i shake my head. 

" lucy, tell me what's wrong. please. " he said to me, with pleading eyes and a gentle tone. 

" i don't want to talk about it. " i shake my head again and attempt to turn around and walk away. he reaches for my arm and pulls me back. well, my plan backfired. 

" look, natsu. now's not the right time for this, alright? if you really want to know, go and ask my now ex-boyfriend. " i got out of his grip and started running home. 

― 

i haven't gotten out the house in weeks. my mom's on the school board so it's fine. i was sitting in bed with soft fuzzy blankets wrapped around me like a burrito. my macbook playing the originals on netflix. a couple of my friends, especially natsu, have tried to come and check up on me. asking why i haven't been at school or what's happening to me at home. a bunch of text messages from natsu have swarmed in. it's been the daily now. 

April 15, 2018
from: best friend
luce, please answer me. 

April 20, 2018
from: best friend 
i'm worried sick about you. 

April 21, 2018 

from: best friend
baby, please. 

April 22, 2018
from: best friend
i will come over to you're house if i have to.  

April 25, 2018

from: best friend

okay you're now making me extremely worried for you. answer these messages please. 

and the list goes on. 

 i sat there watching netflix, i glanced at the clock 2:40 p.m. that means school is out. which also means that natsu will probably come by again. maybe this time i can tell him. he's been my friend since we little kids. he'll do anything to make me happy. He hates it when I'm sad. 

 as expected there was a knock on my bedroom door. natsu has a spare key to my house. my mother gave it to him saying that just in case something terrible happens and she's not there to stop it. but in natsu's mind he thought that is was a way of trust. and for me, i just thought is was just for him to stop coming through the window every time. 

" luce? are you feeling any better? have you eaten yet? " 

he always puts my health before his own. i closed my laptop and un wrapped all the blankets that were on me. my eyes were puffy from crying early since that's the only thing that's been consistent for the last month or so. i touch the cold wooden floor. you could hear the small pitter patter of my feet. i reach out to the door knob and stop. 

am i ready for this? 
am i ready to face the world again? 

a click came from the door as my wrist twists with it. i was met with a black t-shirt that you could definitely see muscle through. i looked up and saw a disheveled mess of pink hair. dull onyx eyes with bags under them. he stood there gaping. he looked shocked to see that i finally opened the door. that i finally opened up again to let him in. 

" ..hey.. " i say softly to him. 

" hey. " he breathed out. i was gonna cry again. not because of some stupid idiotic boy. or that my heart missed the feeling of being loved by someone. it's the fact that someone actually cares for me. to be here even when i think that isolating my self will do me good. but it won't. and to top it off that that person happens to be my best friend. " come here. " he whispers and opens up his arms to engulf me in a never ending hug. 

from then on we sat there in the door frame. me spilling my heart out. natsu sitting there taking in every word and listening to me. holding me like the world depended on it. comforting me when the world didn't know how to.