Head Over Heels: Architect [EDITING]

That night

"So tell me again why you had to clean up?" You ask yoongi as he drives you away from the party. It is about 11:00 pm and you are exahusted.
"It's a long story but we're on our way home now so stop your fussing." He laughs. Your eyes roll and you smirk at him.

Finally getting to his house you step out of the car.
"Why are we at your house? I'm really tired..." You mumble.
"Because your brother is at your house drinking with our other co-workers." He says as he unlocks the front door.
"But aren't you his co-worker too? Shouldn't you be drinking with him?" You ask, putting your bag and phone on the table just inside his front door. Suddenly you feel him once again throw you over his shoulder.
"Yah! Why do you always do that!" You yell.
He brings you into the kitchen and sits you on top of the center island. His hands run up your arms and he lightly kisses your lips.
"Why would I want to drink with my boss when I have the opportunity to drink with you?" He smirks.
"I'm not allowed to drink yoongi. So it's only gonna be you having fun." Your voice is blunt. He laughs and let's go of you.
"Go get dressed into some PJ's. I set some out for you on my bed." Wait what? Does he think your staying the night?
"Am I sleeping over?" You ask him while you get off the island.
"Yep. It's just us tonight since the boys are out." He says casually as he starts to cook some ramen. Looking at your feet, your heart starts to beat fast.

Is tonight that night? Is he planning this? I'm sure he wants it. I do.

I want it.

I want him.

"So we're alone?" Your voice is soft and unsteady.

He turns around obviously noticing your nerves.
"Yes it's just us, but nothing will happen that you don't want. It's okay. We can just eat, watch a movie, and go to bed." He smiles.

No. You want it. And you need to be confident. He knows it would be your first time and he will be gentle. Tell him you want it.

"Okay. Uhm I'm gonna go change." You say, hastily running upstairs.

Yoongi POV

She's not ready. You already sprung on her with the whole I love you thing. Don't rush this.

Finally his ramen was done and he sat down at the kitchen table. He twirled a coupled of noodles on his chopsticks and read a few business papers. He had on his old man reading glasses.

"Yoongi..." A soft voice called out to him. She stepped into his view and he looked up from his papers.

She had put on the pajamas that he picked for her. A silky, very skimpy, pair of shorts and a matching pink tank top.

"They look great. Do you like them?" He asked. She looked at herself and nodded her head.
"Yoongi, I have a question." She mumbled. He took off his glasses and put down his papers. She sat down next to him.
"Is this your house? Or do you own it with your room mates?" She asked.
"It's mine. I own it and pay all the bills. My roommates live here for free.  Soon I hope it will be your home when they move out." He smiled.

"You want to live with me?" A smile started to make its way to her face.
"I want to live with you. I want to care for you. I want to marry you. I want to make a family with you. I don't tell just anyone that I love them. I have plans for a future for our relationship and I hope you do too." He said as he went back to reading.

Why do I give in so quickly when I'm talking to her. Those are things I should have kept quiet but I just couldn't. It was like my body was talking on its own.

She walked over to him and kissed him which took him by surprise.
"What did you do that for?" He laughed.
"Can't I kiss my boyfriend with out him questioning it? I don't feel like arguing tonight." She giggled.
"Okay. Sounds good to me. You wanna start a movie?" He said as he pulled her on to his lap. He could feel her heart start to beat a nervous pace as she tried to speak.
"Or we could....uhm.....you know....have-" he stopped her quickly.
"Wow. Look at the time. It's really late.  Let's put a movie on in the bedroom and go to bed." He said as he winked at her. She smiled at him and kissed his cheek.
"Thank you." She whispered.
He picked her up bridal style and brought her up to his bedroom. After tucking her in he got in on the other side and they both fell asleep.

Why am I so nervous when she brings up sex. Ive never had this issue. I just don't want to disappoint her. I just want to please her.

I can't disappoint.

I can't lose her.

"Goodnight yoongi." She mumbled half asleep.
"Goodnight love." This was the life he wanted.

Did he really want to change anything?

Would having sex change some thing?