I Need You and Only You (Carl Grimes FanFic/TWD) --(COMPLETED)--Editing

Chapter 30: Learning Something New

Peyton's POV

"Pey!" It was Maggie again. "Please don't do this!" She was crying now.... I need to keep this up. I need to hold everything in. I looked at my watch on my wrist and smirked.

"Watch me!" I yell at them. I pointed the gun at Beth again. "Rick!" I sang, "I'm waiting~" He looked back at me. "So? What's your choice?"

"Neither." 

I groaned, "Let me barf. Come on Rick why can't you choose? Come on, here grab the gun!" I said holding it so he could walk up and take it.

Rick took a step forward and I smiled. Plan back on track..... He got to me and I hugged him. "Rick, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean to say all that. I... I was just so mad at what Carl said to me. I really wasn't going to kill anyone. I just wanted to give Carl a little scare."

He hugs back, "Well you sure did give everyone a scare. I'm glad you have your memory back." A tear almost ran out of my eye. I'm not cause I'm going to lose you guys. I'm sorry. I moved my hands down to my sides as Rick continued to hug me. 

Here come the next part. I pretend I almost fall over tripping Rick and he fell on top of me. I look towards Beth and her eyes widen. Shit, she knows.

"Rick!"

I start breathing heavily, come on work please! "H- H- Help!!!!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. "Help please!! This guy is trying to do something to me!!!"

"Rick hurry get off of her! It's what she did with me!" I heard Beth yell. Rick tried to move, but I grabbed him, making him fall again.

"Em!" It was my 'dad' and Lucas along with the other villagers.

"Help please!" I started crying. "Lucas!!"

"Em! Get off of her!" My 'dad' pulled rick off me and punched him in the face. "Em what happened?"

I sobbed, letting out the guilt through crying. "He... He was trying to do something..... He pushed me down and got on top of me." I hugged Lucas tightly and hid my face in his shoulder.

"How dare you!" I heard Lucas yell at Rick. "Em, he didn't do anything though right?"

"He didn't, I yelled before he could."

"Good then you're okay."

"Can we go I don't feel safe with them." He nods and we started to walk away. 

"Pey wait!" It was Carl and the group. I turned to look at them. "Why?"

I smile evilly at them. "Because I hate all of you... Did you think I was stupid?" I pulled my gun out again. "If I gave you guys another chance would you take it?" They looked at one another and looked back at me. "See, that's a no isn't it? I told you, I hate you all! You lost Pey Andy Greene, so don't go looking for me anymore and leave!" 

~~~The night before~~~

What should I do? I kept asking that question over and over again. I need to make them leave for their own good. I know Carl's not going to listen, so I need to..... To break up with him. I need to just stay with Lucas. He makes me feel safe.

"I need to use what my dad taught me. I need to push them away, no matter how much I love them. But if I go to over board I'll lose myself and become a killing machine like my dad."  I looked in my bag, and grabbed my medicine out. "I only have 10 left... Once all the pills are gone I don't know how long I can control myself." These pills make me calm down. When I was little I went crazy and hurt my friends like how my dad told me to, but I went over board. 

My parents had to take me to the doctor and they gave me medicine to keep myself low on pushing people away. I haven't pushed anyone away since I was 6 and turned 7. It's been a while, I just hope I don't lose myself.