Your Love Is My Medicine

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Jahseh

Auhlia is my best friend.  She is my ride or die. She is my other half.  She is my dumb half.  My funny half. My smart half. My everything. I love her,  and I am not afraid to tell her or anyone else that ask.  She is currently laying next to me taking a nap.

I get on insta. Fans are commenting where you at? And stuff like that.  I get on twitter and type :

Yall I am not gone. And I am not sad or mad at the moment lol.  I am in love.  And yall don't worry she ain't no fake.  I can't say I am happy cause I ain't. But I don't feel numb which is something I can rarely say. And don't throw shade at her cause I said I am not happy.  She doesn't know about the demons I face.  I don't want to burden her with my stuff.  I love this girl and she loves me and that is all that matters.

I see a whole bunch of Aww comments.  I laugh.  Then I see one that catches my eye:

@Geneva. Ayala. Only(this ain't her real one)
   She can't love you like I did

My fist get hard.  I feel my arm twitch.  I jump off the bed.  I run outside and yell.

Auhlia

I sit up and rub my eyes.  I feel for Jahseh but he isn't next to me. Who the hell is yelling outside my house.  I get out of bed wearing an oversized shirt and slip on my Nike slides. I rush outside to see... Jahseh!

"Bae, why are you yelling? What is wrong" I say.  I get no reply.  I walk closer to him. I place my hand on his arm.  He looks at me. I look at his eyes. So full of pain and depression and anger. He sees me flinch and his eyes soften.

He looks at me then walk back in the house. I walk in and sit next to him on the bed. "What is wrong?" I ask him.  "Noth... " he starts. "Cut the bullshit,  what the fuck is wrong with you" I say. He glares at me. He stands up grabbing his things. He touches the doorknob. "WHAT THE HELL,  JAHSEH YOU ARE FINNA LEAVE CAUSE I ASKED YOU WHAT IS WRONG, WE JUST FIXED STUFF SO IF YOU LEAVE IT IS OVER" I shout my chest heaving up and down.

He looks at me. Tears form in my eyes "We have to talk things out if you want this to work" I say. He looks back at the door then slowly inches towards me. "Auhlia,  I am not happy.  I never have been.  I have horrible depression and sadness and anger built up inside me. " he says. "I love you, I really do but when I have my little moments I need to be alone" he sighs. "I love you too, crazy sane or stupid we have to talk or else this... isn't going to work" I say. He nods then hugs me. I bury my face in his neck. He looks over at me and smiles. I gently peck his lips. We lay down and just chill for the rest of the day.

Unedited,  so ✌