Kellin’s Pov:
I was up all night writing down lyrics for this song, it has to be perfect, we have our first show today at noon. It was 11 so I decided to get a quick shower. Once I was done I quickly grabbed my black skinnies and Vic’s favorite shirt of mine and headed downstairs to get my notebook. I grabbed my keys and headed out the door to go practice with Matty and the rest of the gang. This song was coming together, I just needed to hear it with everyone else added so I could make some adjustments. Matty will be singing most of it since I am just featured but I will sing the part that is most important for Vic to hear.
I finally made it to the Memphis May Fire bus and made my way to the door and knocked. Matty opened it and the gang came flowing out. Matty looked weird, like there was something wrong..
“Hey, the song is finished, we just need to practice it a little before we go on today, sound good?”
“Uhm, yeah sure. We can start now” Matty said looking down.
We all made our way to the practice area in the parking lot. Pierce The Veil’s bus was next to Matty’s so I wanted to keep the lyrics a secret so no one could hear. We practiced the music and Matty sang along low so he could memorize the words to the music and piece everything together. Once we were ready I saw Austin walking by and I yelled for him.
“Austin, I need you to do me a huge favor dude”
“Sure Kellin, what’s up?” He said smiling at me
“Long story, but will you get Vic and take him to watch Memphis May Fire, they go on in a few minutes.”
“Sure, ill get him now.” He stated before running to the bus.
I saw Mike open the door, Austin and him stood there talking for a few before Mike disappeared and reappeared with Vic. Austin gave him a hug and they started walking toward us. I quickly turned around and started talking to Matty about the tour. After Austin and Vic went by, we made our way onto the stage.
“What’s up San Diego?!” Matty yelled into the mic getting the crowd pumped.
“We have a little surprise for you all, we did a collaboration with a certain lead singer, he wrote this song and we are going to perform it on this tour. It’s not released or recorded yet, but it will be soon, so give it up for Mr. Kellin Quinn!”
I made my way onto the stage, searching the crowd for Vic, once I found him, our eyes never left each other. I took a mic and yelled, “Hit it” and with that the song started.
It finally came to my part of the song and I started singing with so much energy and passion, I realized what I had screwed up and what I wanted now, no…I needed. Vic.
If you miss me, I'm just a phone call away
Please be strong, be strong for me
I need you to show me how to change the inside of me
For my heart, for their sake
Be strong, be strong for me
I continued to lock eyes with Vic, showing him that I was pleading now. His eyes started to water and I felt crushed. When the song was over, I walked off stage and fell to the ground in the parking lot. I screwed the best thing in my life up, how could I have been so naive and stupid. No wonder why Vic didn’t want to talk or even look at me, im scum.. I was brought out of my thoughts by someone clearing their throat in front of me. I didn’t bother to look up because I was crying at this point. I simply whispered, “What?”
“Can we talk?” the voice said, the voice I knew all too well.. I shot my head up and locked eyes with Vic.
“You want to talk to me? I don’t blame you if you don’t..”
“I do, just not here. Follow me” He stated as he put his hand down to me to help me up. I slowly took his hand and he led me back to his bus. We went inside and it was empty, everyone must be out supporting Matty.
“What was that song about exactly?” He asked
“Uhm, us.. How stupid and idiotic I was, I screwed the best thing in my life up.”
“Then explain why you did it Kellin”
“Like the song states, you were leaving for tour and I was being left behind, it crushed me. I seemed like you didn’t want me anymore, that you would rather tour and meet new people than to be with me. I understand that the band is important but a lot can happen during those months.. I got so lonely and my mind got filled with thoughts of you cheating on me that I began to believe that they were true, so I cheated.. Im so so so sorry Vic, I love you..”
“Oh, but Kellin-“
“I know, im not making any excuses, I take full responsibility for my actions and I understand if you never want to see me or be with me ever again.”
“Stop.”
“What..”
“Listen to me Kellin, I tried to hate you for what you did to me. I truly tried but I could never hate you, I love you and yes, you cheating crushed me but I can’t just not want to be with you still, I hate being without you. The song made me think and realize that I really didn’t ask you how you felt and listened to what you thought, I just went along with the tour and ignored your feelings. We can be together but we need to take it slow, I don’t trust you as much as I used to.” He said slowly, like every word was well thought out.
“Thank you Vic, thank you so much.” I said kissing him
“Yeah, do you just want to crash here tonight, we could stay up and talk.”
“Sure, but are you sure you don’t want to go home with me and sleep on our bed?”
“No, I cant.. I mean I ’de rather sleep here tonight.”
“Oh, okay. Hey, do you know why Matty seems like he is hiding something? He looked distant and worried earlier..”
“N-No, maybe just personal stuff..”
“Yeah, maybe”
Something was weird here, Vic always wanted to sleep on our bed and he always talked to Matty, so he would know what was up with him.. Oh well, maybe they just didn’t talk yet today.
