Believe (HIATUS)

6

Just a friendly reminder that I don't know how The X Factor works and also this takes place in 2017.

How old are you?

Where are you from?

Why are you doing the X-Factor?

Do you think you have what it takes to win the X-Factor?

If you do win what would you do?

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?

What does your family think of their child being on a show that thousands of people see?

I sighed and threw the paper that had some of the questions that Demi would probably ask me and the other girls. There's more than those. Those were only some. I don't know what I'm going to do or say. I can't. I don't want to be known as the orphan or the foster kid on the X-Factor. I also don't want anyone's pity. But I also don't want to lie. Mami always said that lying was bad. And I don't want to disappoint her more than I probably already do.

"Hey Y/NN you okay?" I looked up to see Chrissy looking down at me. She looked at paper and picked it up sitting next to me. "You know you don't have to tell them about your parents. I wouldn't. But at the same time maybe letting some of it out will be better for you. I'm here to support you with whatever you do." She said softly. I sighed and looked down. Last night I had a nightmare, again. I woke up crying and I couldn't breath. Chrissy was there by my side. She was there to clam me down.

*

Flashback

"It's your fault!"

"N-No it isn't."

"It's your fault that your family died in that accident."

"I-I w-was o-only ssix."

"Shut up yes it is! That's why everyone else in your family like your uncles, aunts, grandparents even you're godparents didn't want to take you, your so called of some god parents they promised your parents that no matter what happens to them that your godparents would look out for you. But they didn't. No one wants you cause it's YOUR FAULT!"

"You're just a worthless piece of trash taking up space."

"B-But-I said shut up!"

"N-No....pl-please....st-stop."

"Y/N! Y/N wake up!" I felt my self jolt up. I felt an arm around me and my head press into a chest. Hearing their heart beat. "It's okay. Breath with me. Follow my breathing. You're okay, it was just a dream." After awhile I felt myself calm I felt her gently wipe my tears away.

"You're not okay." I looked at her not expecting that. She cupped my cheeks wiping the tears that kept escaping my eyes. "I can tell by the look in your eyes, you're not okay. I don't know what you've been through but what ever it is, one day you'll be okay. I want you to know that whatever it is, that's making you feel so sad and just unhappy you can tell me. You can trust me. You don't have to tell me. I'm not gonna say I know what you're feeling but-I lost my family when I was six years old." I whispered interrupting her. I felt her stiffen since I was still in her arms. She then hugged me tighter.

"They died in a car accident. I was....I was the only one wh-who survived. I've been alone for....for almost thirteen....thirteen years." I whispered as my tears kept rolling down my cheeks. Chrissy's hold me tighten bringing me closer to her if that was even possible.

"That-That sucks Y/NN. I'm so sorry you had to go through that at such a young age. I know we don't know each other as well but I do know is that you're strong and you have this. I'm sure your family is up there in heaven right now and smiling down at you cause I'm sure they're proud of how strong their little girl is. Cause I sure as hell would. Y/N you're strong and now you have me. You're not alone. Believe that Y/N."