Believe (HIATUS)

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Vote4Isabel4XFactor: #OrphanY/N someone find this girls parents. Oh wait they probably didn't want her that's why she's an orphan lol

Isabel4thewin: #OrphanY/N so she's an orphan not surprised I wouldn't want her in my family either

IzzyWhiteismywife: haha an orphan? Damn what a loser, her parents didn't want her cause of how ugly she is an-

"Y/N you shouldn't be reading those. Those are dumb ass people who don't got a life and would rather spend their time worrying about other people. Hey." I looked up to see Chrissy looking down at me since I was sitting down. She sat next to me wrapping her arm around my shoulder. She took her phone away throwing it on the bed.

"Don't listen to them. You know the truth, you know what happened. They don't. So don't let them get to you." I sighed and nodded. She's right. Those jerks don't know the truth and I shouldn't let them get to me.

"And besides I heard it's almost your birthday. I didn't know you where a Christmas baby. You're birthday is this week. Like right before Christmas. You're gonna be 18 and I'm hurt, you didn't tell me you're birthday was coming up. Like three days away. Next week we will have it off cause of Christmas and same with the following week cause of New Years. So I was wondering if you would like to spend it with me and my family. I mean you already met my mom and she loves you and she would also like if you'd come and spend the holidays but if you can't I'll understand."

I smiled slightly I've mostly spend my Christmas's by myself I'll sometimes spend it with Mindy but she'd always had her family over and I never wanted to intrude. So I would mostly spent it alone. Again Mindy was more of just my boss. She tried to be there for me but she had to worry about her business, her family and her sick husband and I didn't need her to worry about me. So I just figured it'd be better to make sure she didn't get close.

"Y/N? Is that a yes or a no?" I looked at her feeling a bit scared? Nervous? "Are you sure your family doesn't mind?" She smiled. "I'm positive. Now come on even though there's a slight chance I'll be going home this week. I'll still be your best friend, okay?" I smiled and nodded. "There's a chance I'll be the one to go-Nope you're not you got this."

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I sat on floor Demi gave us an artist yesterday and now we picked out a song from a jar and I got Titanium by David Guetta. I don't know what song Chrissy or Isabel got but all I know it's by David Guetta.

I figured instead of having the song upbeat like it is. I'd play the song on the piano slow it down a bit. I think that's a great idea. Out of the other categories the only ones who are left are a girl group named Girl Wonders and Kevin James from the boy category. Today Chrissy, Isabel and I will have a sing off. But I still don't know who is going first. I don't want to go first. I hope I don't go first.

"Hey Y/N how's it going?" I looked up from the piano to see Demi. "Um it's going." She smiled and nodded. "A piano for a David Guetta song?" I nodded. "Y-Yea I-I figured I'd slow it down a bit. I-Is that okay?" She smiled, "Of course it is. I like how you're doing something different. I'll let you to it. You got three hours before we're live." I nodded and she patted my shoulder. "Oh and Y/N I know this is known of business but I used to do that. I know you may feel like it's the only solution at the time but it isn't." She sat down next to me. I kept my eyes down feeling like I've disappointed her in some way.

"I'm more than just your mentor. I'm also a friend. If you ever need some one to listen I'm here okay." I nodded once again she patted my shoulder and got up leaving me alone in the room. I let out a sigh. I looked down at my wrists. I ran my fingers over the scars.

I'm stronger than this. I know it. I don't need some no life's bringing me down. I got this. My dad always said, 'People will bring you down when they are down and feeling sorry for their own life. They want you to feel sorry for yourself and make you feel worthless so they feel good about themselves. These type of people you shouldn't worry about cause you're strong, brave and so much more. Don't let someone who doesn't know you make you doubt yourself. The only person that can tell you what to do is yourself, no one else.'