A Good Girl's Confession

Chapter 6: Past

*Lauren's POV*

I never know that it would be this ass of me to get drunk last night. I can feel that my head will be splitting into two at any moment when I try moving. The world is spinning when I try to open my eyes. I am messed up, bigtime.

How can I go to school when I can't comprehend what time of the day is it? I should not disobey Drake again because he really knows what is best for me. Now that I am thinking of my close-to-perfection boyfriend, I try to recall what happened last night. But unfortunately,I can't remember any single detail of it.

"You should be angry at him Lauren. He just left you here when he knows you don't have someone to take care of you", my inner self said in disdain.

I try not to listen to her because for all I know, it's my damn fault why I am experiencing this melodramatic scene in my life. But one part of me hopes that he could have stayed with me for a night. My thoughts really are creeping on me that I just find myself pouting. I'm not angry or something, I'm just being hopeful.

"Why are you pouting Lauren Shar Martini?"

I don't know why, but just the sound of that voice send me directly to the floor. It really surprised the hell out of me that my body reacted too fast.

"Shit! It's just me Shar. I don't have time to be nice with you because I'm still disappointed with your actions last night, so get up here and we have a lot of talking to do", Drake commanded me with an irritated voice.

With that kind of voice, I have no option but to willingly obliged. Even though I feel like I'm dying because I can't stand my buzzing head, I still try to get up but a loud thud follows because I fail. I'm to weak.

"Lame Lauren!", Drake said. I can feel footsteps approaching me.

I'm expecting another outburst from him but to my surprise, he lifts me off the ground and bring me to my bed and let me sit. He let me drink a cup of coffee that I think really help me to recover.

I'm kind of feeling okay right now because the world stops spinning. Thanks God!

I try to look at Drake beside me and an annoyed face greeted me.

"Great Shar". I told myself. "I am really dead".

I'm waiting for him to speak but all I can hear is silence. I look up to his direction and see him staring at me.

I inhale to ready myself to break the silence. "Drake? I'm really sorry! Please? Don't look at me like that.", I begged while playing with my fingernails.

I again waited for a response but still there's silence. I'm on the verge of crying when his arms pulled me on a tight hug.

Everything feels right when he did that. I sniff at his glorious scent and it's more heavenly. I heard him chuckled.

"Fantasizing with my body Shar. All you have to do is ask Babe", he said amused.

"Shut up! You just smelled heavenly Babe", I put a stress on Babe because I don 't want him calling me that.

"You're really are feisty Shar. I'm just joking for heaven's sake", he said sheepishly.

"Just don't call me Babe Drake. You know I'm not pleased with you saying that. Just drop it, Can you?", I said in an irritated voice.

"You haven't really told me the story behind it Shar. Curiousity's killing me", he's close to begging.

"In the right time gangster love", I said looking away from his charcoal black eyes.

"Ok! I lost. But please Shar. No more secrets and lies?"

I just give him an awkward nod because I'm not really used to talking to him seriously. I just want seeing and talking to him like his usual self. Being an a-hole with a severe attitude. I just adore him being so feisty and gangsterish. Yeah! I just find it amazing how bad he can be. At first, I don't want him to be involved in gang wars or something illegal but now I like him to be a "GANGSTER" AGAIN. It may sound odd because I'm the one who changed him or rather made him lie low in his gangsterish self but I missed him being feisty and asshole.

'Shar? hello! Boyfriend here. Care to be back in reality Please?', he said frustratingly.

"Oh I'm Sorry gangster love.",  I said playfully. I also hold his hand and plays with it. I don't know what's gotten into me this past few days, but I'm kind of being an ass. Kissing him out of public. Not obeying his word. Making him have a hard on that really pleases my ego. I want to become the bad girl he doesn't expect me to be.

And after deciding that I want to be a bad girl, I just find myself straddling him. I'm atop of the most beautiful guy I've ever met. I slowly tilted my head to give him a kiss when he grabbed me so hard and bring me back to his side.

"What Drake?! I'm going to kiss you and this is what I'll be getting? What's the matter with you?" I said angrily. I could not contain my anger given the fact that I'm literally turned on.

"Shar, stop being a pussy please? I'm not really good on taming my inner me. As you can see, you have me horny.", he sighed.

I am taken aback by his reaction but in a good way. My ego soared up high, as high as the Mt. Everest. I chuckle as a response to his outburst. I gather up the courage in me to sound inviting and appealing.

"Why do you have to tame him when I like you being horny Love?', I said being seducive.

He is surprised as hell. He is staring at me as if he can't believe his very eyes, but I know he is just controlling his emotions because a glint of excitement can be seen in his eyes.

"Are you sure Shar?", he whispered at my left ear that send my female hormones kicking. I don't care anymore. I really want those red and soft lips to be mine. Again, not trying to contain my agressiveness, I go atop of him. This time, he claims my lips first and it feels a thousand of electric bolts have gotten into me. I just find this kiss so hot and a kickass one.

He is a wild one. Like those vampire who really thirsted for blood. Our positions changed and he's straddling me. This time, I allow him to evade my mouth. We have our tongue wrestled for some time when I can feel his hand inside my shirt. Shet! I'm getting horny myself too. He now have his tongue tracing my collar bone while his hands are busy with my nips. I moaned and groaned.

"Shet?! Lauren Shar. I have so much respect for you but I can't stand you being like a bitch.", he said those between kisses. I try stripping off his shirt to see those milky 8-pack. With just a touch of how firm and hard it is, heightened up my hormones. I can feel the hotness of my body radiating. I want him really bad.

As I attempt for his home base, he shrugs. "Not now, bitchy Shar". He chuckles. "Maybe in the right time.You can't lose your purity now Shar.", he said calmly that really freaks me out.

I pout. 'I'm impress Mr. Costanza.", Afters saying that, he claims my lips for a very passionate kiss. "I guess that will do for leaving me hanging. He just chuckles.

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That morning encounter with Drake made me realize that he really do love me. He can't afford losing my virginity just for him to taste a short-lived pleasure. I can never be proud of him. After that passionate kiss we shared, he left me alone to change clothes but he promised to pick me up to attend our afternoon class.

Living a life with no one to turn to but just Drake and his BoneBreaker Gang mates, is a kind of lonely. My Mom and Dad abandoned me when I'm 14. The worst nightmare that I've ever face. I was hopeless because they just left me with their riches just because of what I did.

I'm nearly on the verge of crying when a honk of Drake's car pulled me out of my reverie. "Thanks God", I mutter to myself. Atleast someone distracted me from remembering my tragic past. I rush toward the gate and go to his car. He pulls me into a tight hug and give me a peck on my lips.

N/N: I am starting to tell you what was really on the past life of our two main characters. Watch out and keep reading :)