A Good Girl's Confession

Chapter 16: A Nice Way of Saying Goodbye

*Lauren's POV*

"HEELLLLLLPPPPPPPPPPPPP!"

"Hey Stop Shar! It's me! It's Drake", the familiar voice breathes in the crook of my nose.

I kind of relax a bit but that thing pressed just above my pelvic bone is causing me a panic attack. I can feel my system contracting as it wants to push Drake away from me. I can no longer feel that I'm protected. I can feel the remorse radiating in each corner of his eyes.

"Let me go.", I'm forcing my way out of his grip but its strong as a steel. Both his hands hold my hands captive above my head. I am pressed on the wall so hard.

"Is this what you want Lauren? Dressing like a bitch hungry for someone to touch you.", he said full of malice and urgency.

What is happening to him. He looks like one if those horny wolves looking for a mate. I don't know the Drake standing in front of me. He's gripping me like there's no tomorrow. I can feel my strength leaving me again as I keep on fighting him just to let go of me. His tongue traces every part of me that make my knees jelly. I stop fighting back and decided to surrender. Either way I am hopeless. I am slaughtered into pieces by my boyfriend. I am abused physically, mentally, and most of all emotionally.

I can feel him losening his grip. He tries kissing me on the lips but I angle my head away from him. I just can't stand seeing that evil face I used to love. He's touching every part of me and only tears keep on falling down my face. I have no other reactions. I am numb and I can't feel what he's doing. All I'm aware is that he's consuming all the respect I have for myself. I can feel that I am the stinkiest, filthiest and most miserable girl alive.

"Why are you crying you bitch? Isn't this what you want?", he asks after tracing my jawline with his tongue. I disgust him. He's the most cruel person I've ever met.

"Just let me go Please? Please?" I'm begging with my hoarse voice. I can feel my lips are bruised because of all the biting he had done.

He just give me an evil smirk. "You should think first before putting this clothes on Shar", he said mocking and again pushes me hard on the wall as he starts caressing my second base.

"Please, Drake! Just do me a favor and stop. Ple-aaas-", what I am about to say is being cut when he forcibly nibbles my 2nd. I moaned and I think it gives him the wrong impression.

"So, I just hit the spot, haven't I? he said victoriously.

"No! Pleeeeaseeee! Stooooopppppop!", I cry at the top of my lungs when he starts going down. Now, I'm crying loudly. I am hyperventilating. I am punching him and I am making too much movement just to distract him. And with a one deep breath, I hit him on the part where it hurts the most.

It's when he moves away from me. He's writhing in pain. He's looking at me. And all I can see is hurt. Now, I'm feeling guilty. What have I done?

Thinking of what you've done when all he have done to you is nothing for what you've done? Get a grip of yourself Lauren.

It's like a slap on the face. My conscience is right. He has done much worse. But, I can't bear hurting him. This is me foolishly in love with him. No matter how hard the situation gets, I'm still here longing for all of him.

I sit down on the corner across him. He still have pain all over him but I guess he has just recovered a bit. He still looking at me with a blank stare and has kept a wide distance between us.

I curled on my knees hiding my face. Hiding my screwed self. Shame is eating the whole of me. My self-esteem has just been trampled big time. I don't have the face to show the world. Tears are already streaming out my eyes.