A Good Girl's Confession

Chapter 15: Showing Off

*Lauren's POV*

You know that feeling like you have been abandoned for so many times? I can't understand why the sound of laughter reverberating around me is just getting on my nerves. The plan of making myself beautiful for tonight's night out just slipped off my head.

I am now walking down the corner of the road where my house resides. The supposedly 5 minute walk from the mall to there seems like taking eternity.

I'm stopping myself from crying. What would other people think if they will see someone trodding down the road in wide daylight crying? I had made a lot of bad impressions in our neighborhood in the past so I think I don't need an additional F mark to that.

But images of them kept on flashing on my mind. Can't I have the liberty of having a peace of mind? Can misery just give me a break just for once?

And that's it! On cue, my tears are now falling down my cheeks. To save myself from looking like a fool, I run towards my house. It feels so hard to breathe.

I'm weeping like there's tomorrow inside my walk in closet. This is my haven if I feel like the world is turning down on me. The blond hair of the Queen Bitch moving wildly from left to right as she mauls her unhygienic lips over Drake made me want to throw up. Are they doing this all the time behind my back? Are they having one of this bullshit relationship known to be FUBU which is a term for F*cking Buddies?

I can't take all the thoughts running in my mind. When why is he inviting me for a night out? Did he also made the story that most of us can get killed if he don't accompany that Queen Bitch?

Urghhhhh! I am going crazy! Should I have listened to what Dra. Girly has said? Is he really ......

I don't want to continue this kind of thought because I'm close to losing my self. Again, my eyes sting and it's a signal that another wave of tears are about to drown me.

Lying here feels like forever. I'm still contemplating if I still be going. I don't know what time is it too. I haven't move any muscle since I get here and I'm aware that someone's keep on checking me. I know it's Dwight but this one's banging the door is kind of gentle.

"Lau? I'm coming in.", a familiar voice said. It's kind of inaudible but somehow understandable.

"Can you get out there? We're all worried out here. Please Lauren?", the voice is pleading. With a deep sigh, I open the door.

"BLAGGGGGGGG!"

The door collided with something hard as a stone. A dazed Justin is on the floor and he's holding his head where he got the blow. It made me laugh and loosen up a bit.

"Ooops! Sorrry Just! I-I ..." My voice is trailing because I can't hold my laughter anymore. He is so adorable that I want to pinch those rosy cheeks. I bet his not yet over by the blow but I think he felt more humiliated than hurt.

"Ha Ha Ha Ha and Ha! Can't you see that I'm badly hurt?", he groans and pain is all over his face.

"Jeez! Is really that bad! OhmyGod! What to do? Just, do you still remember me? Still remember who you are? Oh my god. I didn't mean to."

"Chill Lauren! Don't panic. It will not help the situation", he said looking at me in the eye.

"All you have to do is take care of me sweetheart", he continues still holding my gaze and then wink.

"Jerk!" I exclaimed. I headed for the bathroom to wash the weariness in my face. Atleast, I'm a little bit distracted.

"Hey! Open up Lauren. I am just trying to you know, cool you down. I really didn't mean to scare you or what, but it really gives me an overwhelming feeling that you care though", he said on the other side of the door.