Kill This Venom From My Heart

Naivety At Its Best

'The forrest. . . I wait for you. I won't harm you.'

I'm so irritated and frightened by this voice in my head trying to tell me what to do. It can hear everything I think, it's frightening. I was finally walking home after the last classes of the day.

'Don't fear me.'

"Fuck Off, will you?" I mutter, beginning the walk home. I can't wait for the bus tomorrow. I feel terrified walking home right now.

'I know things about you that you don't, That no one will ever tell you. Nobody but me.'

That made me stop and listen to the voice in my head. What does this mysterious voice know about me that I don't know. It's lying. It has to be. My parents would never hide anything from me. They love me, they say it everyday.

'How will you ever know if you never ask.'

"Leave me alone!" I say out loud. As soon as the words fall from my mouth I regret it. People may think I'm Crazy. I mean, I wouldn't be surprised, I obviously seem pretty insane yelling into empty air. But it worked for right now, seeing as the voice didn't talk to me for the rest of the walk home.

When I step into the house, I look into the kitchen to see my mom chopping up an orange for herself. She sees me and her eyes light up.

"Hey Phoenix! How was your first day?" She says smiling, gesturing for me to sit next to her at the Island. I sit down and She gives me a piece of the orange, which I bite into.

"It was good, I made some friends." I say taking another bite. She smiles, Knowing this is a slightly unusual thing for me. I'm not one to make friends on my first day to school, So this is amazing to her.

"That's Great, Honey! You should invite them over sometime!" she says excitedly, looking over joyed that I possible might be coming out of my shell. Sometimes she can get slightly annoying with her 'Encouragements' To get out more. But we move around so much, it just doesn't make sense for me to get attached.

After thinking about it for a little bit and another bite from the piece of orange I say "Yeah, I think I will." and then I hop up to go to my room and listen to music. Maybe if I actually invite them over, they will get off my back about it.

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It was later that evening when The voice came back again. And boy was it pushing it. God I wish I could block out the stupid thing. It's taunting and annoying and It really needs to fuck off.

'I know you want to know. There is so much you would never even think of knowing. Come to the forest, I don't bite.'

"Will coming into the forest shut you up?"

'Yes.'

"Then Fine."

I hop out of my bed, seeing the light outside my window slowly Darken. I pull on shoes and sneak past my parents, going out the back door. Its already dark out, making me regret this decision. It makes it extremely more ominous and terrifying.

Once I reach the forest, Fear strikes my veins. I can hear ominous noises of animals throughout the forest, making it feel like a jungle. You could hear the coo of the owl and a hiss from a snake, every once in a while there was a loud rustle from the inner parts of the jungle.

I step in slowly, scared beyond my wits and Regret flowing steadily through my veins. The rustling gets louder as I continue on with my Journey. Suddenly, a rustle is heard next to me, making me jump away and stare fearfully at the spot. I was almost awaiting a ferocious beast to come out and feast on me, but I knew that might have been my imagination speaking to me. I stare at it for another moment, then keep walking with my eyes cast down, until I get shoved onto one of the trees by something quick and agile. I start trembling, suddenly scared for my life and repeating that I'm an idiot in my head. I don't dare look up.

"I lied when I said I didn't Bite" I hisses, leaning close to my ear. "I do know more about you than you'll ever be able to figure And its gonna stay that way" I can feel his breath heavy on my neck, making chills run down my spine. The hairs on my arms and neck had risen and goosebumps were present as well. I could feel him brush my neck with his teeth and I knew there was no hope for me. I hear him chuckle before aligning his teeth to be against the skin on top of my veins.

Well, I lived a nice life. Short, but nice.

Suddenly, The still unknown man is shoved off of me in a quick movement with a flash of red. My head hits the tree as the man is shoved away, making me slightly dizzy. I fall to the ground, crumbling in a fearful ball. I hear grunts of anger ring loudly and soon, I hear one of them zoom away. Foot steps ring closer and closer as I squeeze tighter and tighter until a gentle hand brushes through my hair.

"What the fuck did I say Phoenix?" I look up to see Gerard leaning down before me, looking annoyed. "You have to listen to me, okay? Its dangerous to go out at night, even more dangerous to go to a forest. Don't go places at night unless you have one of us with you, okay?"

I nod, still not able to move from the fear that hit me. My back hurts from the force of the blow and my head is still dizzy from hitting it. I feel his arms go under me and lift me up, carrying me.

"I can walk" I say. He looks at me with one eyebrow up, but puts me down. I stand up nicely, but when I attempt to step my shaking makes me almost fall again. Gerard catches me before I fall, swiftly picking me up in his arms again.

"I'll take that as me reason to carry you home." He says snarkily. I roll my eyes and decide to snuggle into him anyways, even with my annoyance."Where do you live?" I tell him the address quietly and settle down, calming my nerves.

My eyes begin to droop as I listen to his steady breathing, his body is strangly warm despite what he is. I snuggle deeper, my head resting in the crook of his neck as I slowly fall asleep to the steady steps and the even breathing.

*written by

@Thanksforthecoffee