Speechless (Jarry Fanfic) [slow updates]

Chapter 4 - "New kid, Harry Styles"

~ Jade

I could hear his footsteps getting closer to my desk. New kid, Harry Styles. They guy with the perfect smile, curly hair, you know, the kind of guy that girls swoon over. The kind of boy I would have swooned over. Totally out of my league after what happened to my face. Not that I even had a chance before that.

His foot steps stopped at my desk.

"I'm Harry," he said brightly. I gritted my teeth, and forced myself to look up at him. He was going to see my face sometime anyway.

When he saw my face. His smile faltered. Not a lot. But enough to make me drop my head down to the level it should be. He quickly took his seat when he saw my tears dripping onto the table. I felt so stupid. Why can't I just be normal? Especially around someone as good looking as him.

He made no attempt to talk to me for the rest of class, except when he was leaving. I just stared at him the same way I stared at Dr Richards. Emotionless. Even though their words were killing me inside.

I found Perrie at lunch, she was the only person who didn't look at me like I was a freak, my only friend.

"Jade, hi!" she exclaimed as I plonked myself down across from her. "How was class?"

I shrugged, my usual response. I don't know how she puts up with my lack of enthusiasm, it made me feel bad because I never put any effort in.

"Well I just had Drama, it was amazing," she gushed. Perrie paused for a moment, she was biting her lip. I gave her a look saying "ok you want to tell me something so get on with it."

"Ok so at the performance I did on the weekend," she trailed off, building up the suspense, "I met a guy," she was beaming. She was giggling like an idiot. I widened my eyes, gesturing with my hands for her to continue.

"Well his name is Josh, he's in Year 12, he's knows umm.." she stopped and looked over at the entrance to the cafeteria. I averted my gaze from Perrie but wished I hadn't. Joey and his goons strutted into the room, they all looked around till their eyes landed on me. I quickly turned around, but I wasn't quick enough.

"Why hello there Jade, how have you been?" Joey snarled, leaning his palms next to my lunch tray. "It seems like the longest time since I've seen you, which is strange because I'm always wanting to talk to you."

I didn't look up from my food. They were serving meatloaf today, I wasn't planning on eating it, but I made it seem like I was very interested in it. The room had grown deadly silent now, my blood turned to ice.

"Don't you have anything to say to me?" he growled, before slamming his hands down on the table. I jumped out of my skin and let out a small cry. He laughed. He loved the power he had over me, he loved that he could scare me into doing anything, because he knew I was terrified of him. All his mindless goons began laughing along with him as they walked off.

"Jade? Are you ok?" Perrie asked, carefully placing her hand on my arm. It was soothing. I began to open my mouth to speak, but quickly shut it.

"Do you want me to keep telling you what happened or -" I cut her off with a nod. I'd rather be distracted than think about what had just transpired. My heart was beating out of my chest, I couldn't seem to slow it down. I let Perrie's words wash over me.

"Well, umm, he was there watching the performance, and he came up after to talk to me. He congratulated me on how well I did, saying he'd love to come watch me again. He was so sweet, Jade. You'd love him. I want you to meet him. But obviously not until we go out on a date or something," she laughed, shaking her head, "he did ask me out, our date is this Saturday. I really hope this goes well."

I gave her a reassuring smile, I wanted it to go well for her to. She deserves to be happy. She was so caring and kind, she was friends with me even if it meant that everyone would tease her. She deserved so much. She didn't deserve the baggage that came along with being around me. All I do is destroy people's lives.

I looked around the cafeteria and locked eyes with Harry, we stared at each other for a moment before I focused my attention back to Perrie. I could feel my cheeks heating up, the redness gradually working its way from my neck up to my face. I hate that I would still get a wobbly stomach from staring at a boy as gorgeous as that. That would never happen.

I ran home, longing for the comfort of my own bed. I curled up in it and had a nap, knowing that Mum would wake me up when it was time for dinner.

When dinner time arrived, we sat around that table. Mum was asking me questions about school, and how I was doing with my studies. I just smiled and nodded in all the right places. My dad was watching me from the other end of the table. Looking like he wanted to blow my head off, with the rifle that was hanging in the garage. He was a tad drunk, you could tell. But that was understandable after the grief I'd given my parents. He went out every night, to casinos and bars, wasting his money. He would come back home, and usually crash in bed. But sometimes he would shake me awake just to have a yell at me. This could sometimes be at 1:00am.

I excused myself from the dinner table and hopped into bed.

I imagined a time back when Amy was still here. To help me get through this. But I didn't know if I could survive another minute.