You're An Angel [Destiel Fanfiction]

Chapter 6

Chapter 6:
Tell me the story of how the sun loved the moon so much, that he died each night just to let her breathe.

Dean's P.O.V
I ended up staying at Cas's house that night. He forced me go to sleep. He gave me 30 milligrams of Melatonin and practically shoved it down my throat. He stayed up most of the night watching some boring documentary on Marine Biology and the studies of it. So, yeah, I could have done without the sleeping meds.
I woke up to the smell of food and cleaning supplies. What a tasty mixture. I looked up at Castiel and saw him making him and me some coffee. He had a plush blue robe on that was undone to where I could see his chest. I grinned. "Uhm... Dean.. You're staring.." he rubbed the back of his neck awkwardly. I gave Cas a huge hug before I fixed my plate and sat down with him to eat.
After we ate, Castiel went to go take a shower. I walked around the house and laid on his bed for a while.
I decided to be nosy. I looked through his book bag. Nothing was important, just a few doodles and school notes. I looked through his drawers, and under his bed. Board games, candy wrappers, some Coke cans, and a journal. I quickly picked it up. I shouldn't do it, but I will anyway. I flipped through it all, and none seemed important. Stuff about school, grades, his dad (who is a total "assbutt" as Cas mentioned in his writing.) All of if was pretty boring, but one page caught my eye. It was only 3 months ago.
March 5th, 2013 9:22 p.m
I just don't understand.. Dean hates me. Why? I never did anything to him. He just slammed me into the lockers and laughed. Is it weird that I still love him? I must be crazy to love someone who treats me like shit. But Dean will never love me back. So why bother anymore? I should just kill myself. No one needs me.