Guarding My Heart

Doce : Cena

El punto de vista de Lea

I was pondering over the fact that my phone dropped when I was in the laundromat and throwing a fit -literally- inside there because of the prank Liam and Gabriel decided to pull on me. I didn't know why but it felt wrong of me to walk back into the laundromat again and just search for my phone on the floor.

I didn't want to look at Liam in the eye or face Gabriel again after that silly four year old fit I threw in there. I was embarrassed because of it. I knew the side effects of throwing a fit on someone who doesn't even deserve it but I just had to because of the anger that was building up inside of me. I don't throw fits that often but then Liam just manage to push that button of mine all the time.

I lost track of time when I left my phone over at the laundromat. But with the way the sky is setting, I'm pretty sure that it's going to be dark soon. I was getting antsy on going home without my phone together with me because it was quite a long walk from my house to the laundromat and it didn't help with me feeling like I had lost a part of me back at the laundromat.

I didn't know why but then my phone was like a close friend of mine apart from Rocio, who is a human being. Without my phone, I am completely nothing. I couldn't keep track of time and I lost all form of contact together with everyone.

I was too chicken to go back to the laundromat to get my phone so I just decided to hang out in the streets for awhile before going back over to the laundromat to look for my phone. I didn't know why but then I was convinced that some people had already taken my phone and decided to sell it over to someone homeless for a good price.

Sitting myself down on one of the benches right next to subway, it was getting late and the sun is already starting to set. I've never been out in the open before all alone in the dark and I didn't want to stay out late at night but I need my phone back and I was determined to get it back no matter what.

Growing up, my parents didn't use the typical 'ghost and haunting the streets at night' to scare me and my brother. Instead, the use the other typical one 'gangs are running the streets late at night' to scare the both of us. I was scared out of my wits as a child to even step foot out of the mansion when I was a child but Liam, being the braver one, always goes out to play together with the neighbour's child late at night.

I guess that was what made us two different person. Liam isn't afraid. I am. Liam had already gotten rid of all of his demons years ago but then I was too chicken to get rid of my own demons. I was absorbed into a world where it was only me and my insecurities but Liam isn't.

It was probably a reason why my mother favors Liam all the time. He doesn't run away from his demons. He faces them and tries his best to conquer them. But me, I just choose to run away until one day I can finally face them. Liam was the opposite of me and it has been like this all the time ever since we were kids.

I was staring up at the already dark sky when I felt someone tap on my shoulder. I didn't know what to do but look back at who had tapped me on the shoulder. I was praying that it isn't anyone dangerous that my parents told us to stay away from.

Taking a deep breath, I decided to turn my head around and look at the person who had tapped me on the shoulder. His face was illuminated by the subway's light but I can still make out his face perfectly. Gabriel. It seemed like every where I go, I'll surely bump into him and it was getting on my nerves "What do you want?" I said, turning my head back around and looking off into the distance.

People are steering clear of the streets when the sky started to darken. It made the streets quiet except for a few people who probably are dangerous people walking the streets at night. I didn't even know why I am sitting on a bench right outside of subway but I couldn't think of a better way to get my phone back.