Regaining Her Memories.

Regaining Her Memories; 12

Xavier's POV:

I stood there in shock as Autumn broke down and cried.

I never knew how broken and hurt Autumn really was.

She was never this hurt before, what happened?

She's so strong, she's tough. I saw her today with her hands around Sydney. She was so protective of Summer. It was extremely hot by the way. 

Then in the infirmary, the way she took care of Summer.. Like she was a mother to Summer. She was probably more of a mother than mine ever was.

I kneeled down and gently picked her up bridal style, I closed her dorm room and walked over to her bed. I'm guessing the black one was hers.

"Shhh, Shhhh." I felt her tears soak through my shirt. I gently ran my fingers through her hair. I cradled her like a baby and kissed her forehead. 

I wanted to know what made her hurt inside. I wanted to hold her, to kiss her and tell her everything was going to be alright. 

Like when we were kids and she fell down and scraped her knee. I held her close to me and took care of her.

Okay Xavier stop being cliche.

She struggled to free from my arms but I just pulled her closer. "Stop. Let me hold you for a bit." I placed my chin on her head and rocked her gently. 

She hesitated for a moment, then relaxed. "Shhh.. calm down, it's okay. You're safe. I'm not going to let anyone hurt you."

She slowly stopped crying and looked up.

She looked so cute.

 "Oh God I probably look like crap right now." 

I placed my hand under her chin and looked into her eyes.

"You're beautiful."

A giggle escaped her lips which caused me to grin. She's so adorable.

"What's wrong.. Are you okay?" I asked her.

She looked at me for a long time, then answered.

"Yeah I'm fine."

I shook my head no. "No you're not. Tell me what's the matter."

She sighed and wiped her cheeks. I laid against the wall on her bed, with her in my arms. I breathed in her scent, Axe Excite body spray. I smiled.

"Since when did Xavier 'the Great' have a heart?" She muttered. 

I snorted, "I have a heart, if I didn't I'd be dead."

"Why do you even care though?"

"Well I'm not going to let a pretty face be filled with depression now." I replied.

She sighed deeply and I pulled her impossibly closer to me.

"Tell me what's on your mind." 

She cleared her throat and stuttered. "Memories.." 

I shifted my position so she was sitting on my lap, her back against my chest, her head against my shoulder. I wrapped my arms around her and she held my hands. 

I felt comfortable, I wanted to stay like this forever.

Autumn's turning me into a complete mush ball.

"What kind of memories, if you don't mind me asking." I didn't want to invade her privacy.

She looked up at me, then replied. "Memories of my ex boyfriend."

Those words sliced through me like ice. She missed her dear little ex.

I tried to keep calm. I took a deep breath.

"What about him." I said a little bit to bluntly.

It was silent for a few moments, then she finally spoke.

"He destroyed me. That stupid little shit hole broke me."

I heard her voice break. She was about to cry again.

I tightened my arms around her. "Shhh.... what did he do to you gorgeous?" 

She didn't say anything for a few minutes.

"Don't worry, I won't judge. I've gone through bullshit as well and I'm telling you it's not fun." I filled the silence.

"He.. he tried to rape me in.... his car. I pulled away and since I didn't give me what he wanted.."

Her voice broke and tears flowed down her cheeks. I placed my cheek on her head and rocked her. "Sshhhh... Don't cry beautiful." I whispered.

I felt her body tense up and soon relaxed. She snuggled up closer to me, a smile escaped my lips. I felt myself blushing.

"He told everyone I had sex with him... and I dumped him.. Then he said, I flirted and had a thing with his friends. Everyone.. called me a skank.. and a whore." She cried silently as I held her.

Anger started to grow throughout my body. I was so shocked.

That fucking dumbass hurt her! He doesn't deserve her, he never did. He's a selfish cunt-fuck who needs to learn his lesson. I clenched my fists.

She looked up at me. Her eyes saw through my soul. She calmed me down. I took a deep breath and sighed. 

"He's a douche bag for doing that, you're nothing compared to a skank or a whore." 

She chuckled through her tears. "That's not what other people think."

I looked at her and shook my head. 

"Fuck what people think, they don't know you. You're beautiful, funny, and different then everyone else. That's what I like about you." 

God I'm turning into a priss.

She was quiet, then her voice was below a whisper. "You don't know me.."

I chuckled quietly, "I know more than you think."

She looked up and smiled, then her smile faded.

I felt a slight pain in my chest and I shook it off. "You can trust me."

Gain her damn trust again Xavier.

She shook her head no. "How do I know I can trust you?"

I leaned my head against the wall and sighed.  "If I tell you about myself would you trust me?"

"I don't know.." Her voice was quiet.

"Just please, let me try?" I quietly begged.

She sighed then slowly nodded her head. 

I gently picked her up and placed her laying down on her bed. I sat beside her. I thought I heard a whimper escape her lips. It took me all the strength I had to just sit there, and look at her. Not to lean in and just kiss her.

She patted the spot beside her. "Lay down."

She scooted towards the wall as I laid on the bed, hopefully not taking up too much space. I place my hand on my cheek and my elbow upon the bed so I was facing her.

I breathed in deeply. 

I haven't spoken about my childhood in years. I never wanted to.

Everytime I thought about it I got mixed emotions of pain, depression, and anger.

Those memories, gave me complete and utter Hell.

I looked into her eyes.

"You don't remember me do you.."