Never || ?soonhao?

~10~ (end)

Now, here we are. The flashing lights, and the screams from the fans as Hoshi gets down on one knee and then it becomes silent as he begins to speak.

"Xu Minghao, Seo Myungho, The8, The Best Thing To Ever Walk This Earth, My Sunshine, My Love, My Light, My Honest To God Everything. All of these names for you, but only one of them I have given. Okay, maybe two. Either way, as I have got down on one knee, in front of the fans, staff and members of SEVENTEEN, and as I take from my pocket," He pulls out a small black box, "a box, with just one thing in it. This one thing will say what I want to say, but can't because over the years, I haven't been the best at words. I can't say 'I love you' as often as I used to, and I can't tell you how many times I've wanted to kiss you when you look so cute in your sleepy bed head and cute pajamas. I can, however, tell you that for the rest of my life, you are the only one I ever want to be with, always and forever. I haven't said it recently, and I haven't said it in front of this many people before. This, right here, the little black box, holds our future, and you can say yes, or no." He stops speaking.

He takes a deep breath, and I prepare myself for the words he's about to say, and I tell myself that I won't make a fool of myself, even though I know I will.

"Xu Minghao, since the day at the airport, with me waiting for a certain dark brown haired, cute nosed, Chinese boy, when we met, I knew we'd be amazing friends, I knew that. But, I never thought I'd ask this one question." A pause for dramatic affect, knowing this boy.

"Please say yes. Will you, Seo Myungho, Xu Minghao, please take my hand, always and forever, in this long journey of life, and make me one of the happiest men to walk among, and marry me?"

My heart stopped beating, and I can feel the tears sting in my eyes. I know I'm about to cry, but I also know that I don't want to. I don't want to cry, nothing like this lasts, I know that much. I can't think of anything to say. My mind is blank, and I know I look like a fool. I know I look like an idiot, just standing here, saying nothing, but I don't know what to do. I know I prepared myself for this, I knew he would ask it at a concert, I knew. Because it sounds like a thing he would do. It is a thing he would do. It is a thing has already done, just now. I can't feel my heart beat anymore, I feel like I can't breathe.

"Say yes! Say yes! Say yes! Say yes!" Is repeating over and over, yet it's faint, and it's getting quite. I can't hear anything now, there's a loud ringing in my ears.

I see Hoshi, and the other members, and the staff, and the managers standing there, waiting for me to say something. I feel like I can't breathe. What is this? What do I do? Somebody help me.

You look like a fool standing here, say something.

He's not being for real, he's doing this only because you're in front of fans. Look at Jihoon, standing over there, he looks angry...

Don't listen to him, he's no good for you.

He's lying. He hates you, you disgust him.

"SHUT UP!" I yell, the voices not stopping. I never wanted to do this, I didn't want to do this.

My head hurts, I feel like I'm gonna be sick.

"I'm sorry..." I mumble, or maybe I think it, or maybe I yell it, I can't hear anything any more. My vision is fading, I can't do this. I want to say yes, but I can't say anything any more.

I hear Hoshi say one last thing before everything goes black.

-

There's pressure on my hand, my head hurts. I need water.

"Ming?" I hear a voice from beside me. I can't see who it is.

"It's to bright in here..." I open my eyes, and close them again. "Where am I?"