letters; grayson dolan

Letter nine

Ethan and i sat on the couch, eagerly waiting for the letter to be passed through the door.

i wanted to pretend like i wasn't nervous; like i haven't bit all my nails off.

"what do you think the letter is going to say Gray?" Ethan asked, gripping the couch

"i don't know" i sighed, "yours, i'm sure, will be good" i forced a smile, trying to reassure him

"maybe" he thought but immediately shook off his feelings of hope

just as Ethan was walking up the stairs the letter came, his head jolted towards the front door as he stared at me unquestionably.

"you open it first Gray" he lowered his head

dear Bailey,
  
   from that day forward we became close friends. i thought nothing could ever go wrong. until, Ethan asked me on a date.
   you might be thinking, 'what's wrong with a date?'
  
   well, i agreed and the following night we went out for our first, and only, date. he decided to take me to his favourite spot and a have a small little picnic. romantic? i thought so.
  
   the spot over looked the town we lived in but the best part was the sunset. the gleaming pink - orangey sky.
  
   "isn't it beautiful?" he asked
  
   "yes, it's gorgeous"

   he twisted me around gently, so i was now facing him. he gave me a warm smile causing me to blush, "your so beautiful Amber"

   there was a pause but he then smashed his lips against mine, i hesitated at the start but quickly kissed him back.

   this was my first kiss. it felt like a hundred fireworks has started inside me.

   "i want to show you how much i love you" he moved his lips towards my neck and began kissing it gently

   "here?" i said as a moan

   "yes baby" he indicated for me to jump, so i did as i was told. he lowered me onto the blanket we had rested on the ground.

   his breathing increased as it was now my turn; i removed his pants and starting kissing his neck passionately. i made my way down his chest, kissing it slowly and gently. i stopped once i got to his boxers, giving him a sloppy smirk.

   "mmm" Ethan moaned

   when Ethan ejaculated, i got onto of him and began kissing him. i was unaware that people were watching.

   "you just sucked Ethan's dick!!!!" someone shouted

   laughs erupted causing my face to jolt towards them; Tyler

   i got off Ethan with tears falling from eyes.

   i quickly put on my shorts and t-shirts. i looked around, anxiety rising through my entire body, "h-how could you have done this?" i questioned Ethan.

   i waited for his response but he said nothing. not even a sorry. and so i walked away in complete and utter tears. that was the night i convinced myself that ending my own life is necessary.

a tear slid from my eye as i looked up at Ethan who was sitting in front of me with his head bowed.

"why the fuck did you do that?" i spat

he stared at me with tears forming in his eyes, "i regret it everyday"

"your sick" i yelled, "i cant believe my twin brother did that to the girl i was in fucking love with"

"Grayson please listen to me–"

"shut up" i angrily yelled, "leave me alone"