letters; grayson dolan

Letter one

  I sat on my couch, waiting for the mail to arrive. My heart was beating fast, I have no clue what to suspect, who was this girl? And why did she kill herself? Anxiety rose throughout my body as I began to think about the possibilities of what went wrong in her life. I shook my head, why am I thinking so much about this? I don't even know this girl, I mean she never mentioned her name. For all I know, this could all be fake. Just then, the doorbell rang and the mail was pushed underneath the door. I quickly jumped up and grabbed the envelope that says, 1.

Dear Bailey,

  Welcome back, I hope you dont mind but I decided to give you a name. Im not sure what gender you are so Bailey, I guess, will have to do. If youve received the pervious letter you probably know exactly what this is. But before we start, I forgot to mention a few things before. I guess, it would help if you had a bit of an idea of what I look like and how old I am. I am 18 years old and we'll get to more about me later on. So anyways, lets get into the note.

  The first person, Tyler Sterling. Tyler was my boyfriend, at the time. We were together for 9 months but during those 9 months I felt useless and very unhappy. I tried holding off on breaking up with him for the sake of breaking his heart although really, he already broke mine. Sadly, he took the break up completely all wrong, I tried reasoning with him but nothing worked and he definitely wanted nothing to do with me afterwards. I felt incredibly bad but my friends kept holding me back and telling me that he deserves to feel like that, he did me wrong. So, I went back to being the happy girl I once was until Monday came creeping down my neck. I walked into school that morning and just as I got to my locker I noticed everyone was staring at me and honestly I didnt take it personally, I expected Tyler to tell everyone we broke up but.. I didnt expect what I actually heard. Basically, Tyler informed the entire school that I had sex with him and 4 other people. So yes, as you could probably guess, I was named the school slut. Youre probably wondering, why did this bother me so much? It wasnt true, was it? No, it wasnt true and quite frankly it didnt bother me at first. I didnt think it was ever going to affect me considering it wasnt true but soon enough every boy in the school was looking for a hook up. This rumor, or these rumors are what ruined my life. They started every wrong thing. I loved Tyler, he knew that but I guess the love I had for him wasnt enough to stop him from breaking me apart. Weirdly enough, he apologized. For months, I tried to forgive him, I even tried understanding why he did that to me. Unfortunately, I never understood and I most definitely didnt forgive him. So, considering I never forgave him he spread a picture of me around the entire school. Once again, I was named the school slut and god knows what else. I dont know if youve ever been wrongly accused of doing something you never did but, just to make you aware, it fucking hurts because no matter what you say or do, no one believes you. The higher person, in this case the most popular, will always out beat people like me. No matter what I said, my words and actions had no impact on anyone. Everyone kinda just sat along the sidelines and watched me fall apart. Its okay though, my life was never important anyways.

Tyler Sterling? What the fuck, he goes to my school