letters; grayson dolan

Letter five

   Ethan keeps trying to reinforce me, trying to keep me positive. But, she never told me.. she never texted me, phoned me, her mom didn't even tell me. God, now i really feel like i fucked up. Amber didn't deserve all this, she deserved a life time of happiness, I wish she was still here so I could tell her.. but, unfortunately she isn't so I will live with a life time of regret.

I shook my head, then stared at the letter in my hands. Slightly decorated with the letter 5 written nicely. I sighed loudly, ripping open the envelope then reading it slowly.

Dear Bailey,

As you know, Tyler Sterling spread a rumor about me around the entire school saying i hooked up with many guys including, Scott Limes. Scott was known as the school 'hottie'. He was pretty much the high school popular boy in every single romantic movie literally ever made. But, i guess you could say he wasn't impressed that Tyler spoke out and humiliated him like that. Yeah. Scott was mad because Tyler told everyone he fucked me, apparently to him that was the end of the entire world. But, instead of him telling the entire school we never hooked up his plan, I guess, was to do it anyways?

It was one day in math class and I was kind of just sitting there minding my business, like I do every class, but Scott sat beside me in the empty desk. I never really took a noticing at first but when i did i was extremely confused as to why he decided to sit beside me? Well my fantasy's were put to a rest when he asked for help, wanted me to be his "tutor." I  took it as he wanted help during school hours, like lunch or his free period. but no, Scott Limes has to be so fucking extra. Later that day, I went over to his house, thinking i was tutoring him but little did i know.. We sat down on the couch and for a good 15 minutes he actually listened to me. But unexpectedly, out of nowhere, he kissed me. I pushed him away but he just keep bringing himself onto me. And no matter how many times I told him to stop, he wouldn't. He pushed me so I was laying down and I'm sure you can guess the rest. I didn't want him and I tried to stop him. I pushed, I yelled, I screamed, and I cried.. but he gripped me and screeched in my ear "I know you want me, don't lie" when that's the exact opposite of what I wanted. 

The next day he tormented me about it. He got all his friends laughing at me at how childish I was. I guess rape is funny? But its not funny when you're the victim and you cry yourself to sleep every night because the moment haunts you every time you close your eyes..

Talk to you soon bailey.

I sighed loudly trying to not break down. But all the memories of her came rushing through my mind. The good. The bad. God, I miss her, maybe I should call her phone? Or better yet, visit her mother.