Fate

Musicals

So after getting home yesterday I had decided to look over the list of songs again that had been given to me for the musical. Luckily I actually knew most of them. I wondered who Amber would be singing with and which one she would be singing. When I saw Sandra Dee from Grease it brought a smile to my face and I actually pictured her singing that. I guess I'll find out tomorrow as after school I had my first practice with 3 of the musical numbers.....well assuming she was singing the song I thought.

I made some food and then began the process of trying to get to grips with all this new work. After an hour or too I began to relax a bit, it wasn't going to be a walk in the park but I felt confident I'd be able to keep to the high level I wanted too.

As I got ready for bed my mind went back to today's events and to a certain person. He was definitely worth thinking about all I could picture was his smile, it was just dreamy. Suddenly I felt the toothpaste dribbling out of the corner of my mouth damn I need to stop this. I've always seemed to like guys that are straight and very untouchable. This is the only reason why sometimes I actually wonder if I am gay. I looked up some problem pages once and read threw a lot of back issues until I read one that actually made me wonder if I had sent it in as was me all over. The person giving the advice said it was very common for guys that had no self confidence or fear of re-jection to go for people out of there comfort zone. They also said this meant for either sex so he may class himself as gay even though it's because of his fear of women. I don't know why all this is going through my head. At the end of the day Zac is with Amber and he looked more worried that I was going to try and make a move on her than anything else. Right let's just sleep and see what tomorrow brings. Even though just before going to sleep I began to feel some disappointment as I knew they were not going to be on the bus tomorrow.

Well the day went pretty much the same as yesterday. Went to a few new classes introduced myself to people and got on with my work. I wonder if my life could get any more bland?. Still not really making any proper conversations with people and there was a couple of times I was tempted to message Amber but a) she seemed to always be with Zac and I didn't want to get on the wrong side of him and b) Im sure if she wanted to talk she would of messaged me. So the day passed.

Once lessons had finished I headed to the music room. As I walked in I noticed there was quite a few people there...damn I swear we were only doing three today. I left the other music sheets at home. I also noticed Amber was not there so there went my guess right out the window.

"Oh good your here Tom" Miss Jones waved me over "do you want to get set up and we will begin" she said loudly enough so people quieted down and turned to look at me. I didn't mind I'll be honest I'd be reading the music so I didn't need to worry what anyone was looking at. " Oh and skip the first song I gave you we will start with the song from Grease, we will go back to that one once they get here" great more people how many are we actually doing. But I just nodded and went and set up.

Once I was already to go I looked over to Miss Jones and smiled and nodded.

"Ok girls let's see how well you can do this as I have to be honest it is a pretty large group for one song." Miss Jones said looking over her glasses to the large group of people waiting. I noticed that nearly three quarters of the group began to make there way to the stage. Now my fears of extra songs vanished.

"When your ready Tom" she said looking over at me.

I began to play, then they started to sing, well if you could call it that. There must have been 15 girls all singing at once. It was awful, there harmonies (Not even sure if I can class it as that.) Were all out. They had obviously not heard themselves or not even practiced.....and if they had why did no one tell them how bad it was. I tried playing a bit louder to try and drown out the noise they were producing but even I couldn't make it sound any better. Once I had finished I turned to look at the girls to see if they had noticed how bad they were. All I could see was smiles though, this was going to be hard work.