Aarmau Fanfic ~Will I ever find love?~ (COMPLETE)

Let's try again...

~Aph's POV~

   I love the new neighborhood. It quiet, peaceful, and has a lot of nice people living here. All those people from before live here too, except for Cadenza, from what I've seen, lives somewhere else.

    Its kind of weird to think about, but what would have happened if I would have stayed with Ein longer than I did? Would I be still as lonely as I was? Would I be as sad as I was? Would I be.... Dead? Would he have killed me? Or would I have done it myself?

    I need to move on from that. What's the point of thinking like that? I've had bad break ups before. That one was by far the worst, but I've had other guys hit me. Nothing really new.

   I'm trying to think things out right now. Like should I try looking for someone knew? I mean, Ein and I broke up months ago. At the same time I don't want to be hurt again. I hate it. I want to try and find someone, but I'm scare-

   I can't say "scared". I'm terrified. I mean, I've had guys cheat, hit, and rape me before, and I don't want to go through all that again. Its hard to go through that. I need to look more into people from now on.

   I then went onto a website called Relation"Ships" (Yes I made up a dating site don't judge me)  and typed in my name, age and info about myself. So of course I just put
Name: Aphmau
Age: 22
Fun Facts: "I am looking for a someone who will love and care for me. Give me snuggles and random kisses."
It gave me some options of some people nearby and to my surprise the mysterious dude from before at my work was on there.

   I clicked on his profile and it said Name: Aaron Lycan
Age: 24
Fun facts: "I am kind of shy, but I can show you a good time. My favorite color is red and I am looking for a commited relationship.

   He seemed kind of interesting, so of course I clicked on him and decided to send him a quick message saying "hey. I would love to get to know you and maybe go out sometime." He didn't seem to be on so I decided to go get a shower and then relax.

    I got in the bathroom and undressed. I kind of regretted looking into the mirror because there were scars all over me from Ein. I use to be kind of pretty, but Every time I look at my body all I see is scars and a no longer pretty girl.

   ~Time Skip To After Shower~

   I got out and got dressed in a my PJ's. It was already 7pm so I decided to just relax. I checked my phone and the dude still didn't message back. I can't even tell if he has seen it because they haven't made the new update on the app. So he either is ignoring me or just hasn't seen it.

   I decide to go watch an anime called "Black Butler", which, might I add, is the best anime of all time. (I am go in to kami~con in a few weeks and I'm dressing as a female Ciel and I'm super excited) I got through a good amount of episodes, and before I knew it it was 10:55pm.

   I checked the messages one more time and saw that I still had no answer.

  I decided to go to sleep, and maybe the next morning be would answer. Maybe he just goes to sleep early. That had to be it.

  I thought nothing else of it and fell into a very deep slumber. In the middle of my slumber I had a terrible nightmare that went something like this...

(Abuse ahead)

~Dream Start~

   I was sitting in a dark room alone, waiting for something to happen. All of the sudden Ein came in and just smiled evily. It sacred me, but not enough for me to fully show it. I then spoke, but ended up shuddering "I- I t-thought you were in prison?" he then smiled even wider, but didn't say anything. He walked closer to me and I squeezed my eyes shut. I then felt a terrible pain in arm. A stabbing pain. I then screamed and started to panic. He did the same to my other arm and even slashed at my face. He then punched me and started kicking me. At this point you better believe I was trying to fight back in any way I could. I tried to hit back, but it only made things worse for me. Then after I was so weak that I couldn't move Ein leaned in a whispered "I'm coming for you. Watch. Your. Back."

~Dream end~

   I then shot up from my slumber. I was sweating and crying at that point. point. I look at my phone and it is 5:45am. I know I will not be getting anymore sleep so I get up and check my messages. I had one unopened message. I opened it and it was from that guy named Aaron.

   His response was "Hey, sorry I didn't answer. My work doesn't allow me on my phone so it was off at the time. I would love to get together and hang out." I then start to think of when I was free. "How about next Thursday at 6pm at the nearby StarBucks?" He now answered pretty quick and said "That would be great! See you then!"

   I then get out of bed and stay in my PJ's because I don't plan on doing anything today. Home is the best place to be.

  I then start to think about all the things that could go wrong and mentally slapped myself for thinking the way I was, but at the same time I couldn't blame myself. I had perfectly enough reason to. But I need to get passed that.

              So Let's try again...

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A/N: Hey guys!! Hope you enjoy this chapter! Don't be afraid to correct any of my mistakes. Love all my Kawaii~readers!!! See y'all in the next chapter!!