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5.

I sped down the stairs and out my front door without even any thought.

No, no, no. I thought as I ran down the street towards her house.

Please, no, no, no.

I came to her front door and barged in- it was unclocked.

I ran up to her room and slammed open the door. Her room was dark. Her bathroom and bed were empty. She was not in her room.

I called out her name but I got no response. It was so quiet.

Laying on her bed was a piece of paper with my name on it. I slowly reached out for it. My hands trembled. I made my way down the stairs.

I flipped on a light in the living room and sat down on the couch. I hesitantly opened the piece of paper. I averted my eyes for a second. I didn't want to read it, suspecting the contents, but I knew I had to read it.

My heart beat fast, I could feel myself getting dizzy as I read, tears streamed silently down my face.

Hey, Saturn

If you're reading this, it must mean I've gone to the stars now, haha. Remember that? That night I told you I'd tell the stars you said hello if I went before you?  I promised you I would and I intend to keep that promise. I'm sorry, Sarah. I couldn't take it anymore. There was so much I just couldn't tell you. I didn't want to make you hurt because of me. I couldn't stand the person I had become on the inside. My whole family, except my parents, hate me after I came out to them. It was just so hard to hear. They made me leave and my parents stay. I had to find my way home. I got lost, but I got home, well, to your place. I just told you I was bored so I came over, but really, I was outcast by my own family.

I love you, Saturn, I really do, so much. You're the only person I've ever really loved and one of the first who has really loved me back for who I actually was. You helped me through so much in these last years. I am so thankful for you.

I don't want you to be sad, Saturn. I don't want you to be sad because of me. Take this letter as a piece of me that I am giving to you (and the little ring I taped to it because I'm wearing the other one right now. So see, we'll always be connected, even if I'm not physically there with you) <3

I love you so much, Saturn.

- Mars (Mary)

I stood up but instantly, my vision went blurry from the tears that just kept coming and soon, everything went black. I felt my head hit the coffee table, which hurt, but soon, there was nothing at all.