love can't be lost

chapter twenty nine

Johnny POV

"that was your plan??" i hissed at brynn.

she looks at me, confused. "what? no. what happened?"

i pulled her to the side. "your plan was to send us to the basement?"

"what? no. my plan was something else. but did that work? that was carson's idea."

"well, kinda. i told her i still loved her and that i was sorry and she said she loved me too. but i have to prove myself, and i have no idea what to do."

"ahh, love..."

time skip

i sat down in my airplane seat unhappily. today was the day.

i was leaving to go on tour for the next three months. i was going to the Philippines and some other places around there. as soon as i going out, i refused. i would miss so much of school, and there would be no mackenzie. and i needed mackenzie right now the most.

but my manager said they would drop me if i didn't do it. and my career was so important to me. i showed my manager my new song, called the most, and he wanted me to perform it on tour. as soon as the meeting was over, i got out my phone to call kenzie. she didn't answer though, and i understood why. this wasn't something that you text the love of your life about, so i got in my car and drove to her house. i knocked on her door about a thousand times before she finally answered.

when she saw it was me, she closed the door again.

i started knocking again, because i needed to talk to her.

she opened the door again, clearly annoyed. "what?"

"kenzie, babe, i'm going on tour. my manager is forcing me to, i need you to–"

"to what?" she asks fiercely, a weird gleam in her eyes that i had never seen before. "to follow you around wherever you go? to be at your constant beck and call? well you know what,
john, i'm done with that. we're not a couple anymore, so don't you dare call me babe, and don't you dare think that since you're leaving i'm going to bawl my eyes out and wish i was with you. go ahead and leave. i think it's best if we both just... move on."

she closed the door, leaving my speechless.

and that's how i got here.

that night, i went home and cried my eyes out, maybe she did the same, but it sounded like she didn't. i couldn't believe that she could say she still loved me one day and then say we should move on the next.

i spent the next three days with this misery, added on to the misery i had before, and finally, when it was saturday, the day we were leaving, i got my suitcases and i drove to the airport with my lauren. she was my only family member going on the tour with me, because my mom and dad were going to take care of the house (we were letting them back into our lives little by little, lauren reluctantly) and maddie and darian were still in college.

i boarded our private plane, gave soft hellos to hayden, annie, brynn, and carson, who were going on the tour too. i went to my private room, and sat down on one of the plush couches. the walls of the plane were paper thin, so i could hear lauren talking.

"...rejected by kenzie. a couple days ago, he went to tell her about the tour, and she said that she thinks they should both move on. now he's just miserable, because he can't move on."

"this sounds like a job for the boys!" i hear carson's muffled voice say.

"no, this sounds like a job for annie," lauren interrupts. "annie, please."