24 Years

Out with the new, in with the old.

Yoongi POV

Tears wouldn't stop streaming down my face as I laid with my head and palm rested against his chest.

I sniffed and sat up, Wonho's arm tensed and then fell from around me. I brought my knees towards myself and hugged them, resting my chin on the caps as I kept trying to suppress my emotions.

Like you used to. Come on. You idiotic brat do it.

I was currently in a pair of boxer shorts and Wonho's Jacket. He put them on me after we exited the shower and told me to sleep in them.

I decided to get up and go to the bathroom. However, my legs failed me and I ended up falling straight to the floor. Wonho thankfully didnt wake up, but I also didnt feel like getting back up.

I looked over at my alarm clock.

3:55 A.M.

I hadn't been able to sleep. I feel so guilty and dirty. My emotions are everywhere and I can't even tell which is which.

I curled up into fetal position as my body ached, the new marks on my skin burned, and my mental state depleted.

I went from crying, to nothing. I felt no sadness, no happiness. Nothing.

I got up and went to the bathroom, I looked at my face.

Emotionless, same as before. Looked as though I had never smiled, never met the guys, never got close to Jungkook, and never fell in love. As though no form of happiness resided in me.

My features may be slightly changed from when I was 16, but this look, this look was all the same.

I sighed.

I turned the light off and went back to lay with Wonho. But before I did I stood over him.

I hate you.

I reached for the pillow.

I hate you.

Absent mindedly I picked it up and placed one knee in the bed, bringing my other up to meet it.

I. Hate. You.

I brought it down but he stopped it. I could see his white teeth before the pillow was snatched away and I was thrown onto the floor.

"Trying to kill me? Man the mind works in the most wondrous of ways."

I quickly got up and started swinging at his tall figure that I could barely see due to the small amount of light from the moon.

The back of his hand collided with my cheek, sending tumbling backwards with my own placed over it.

"Bastard!" I yelled

"Watch your tongue Yoongi."

"Don't tell me what to do you asshole!" I picked up the object closest to me and chucked it at him, hitting him square in the head.

He stormed towards me and I panicked. I tried grabbing for something else but nothing was there.

I stumbled backwards and fell. Desperately scooting backwards to get away until my back was met with a wall, and his fist gripped my hair and pulled me up by it.