24 Years

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Yoongi POV

"Jungkook, I need you to not make this difficult for me okay and to just do as I say. But I need you to go back to your dorms."

His eyes widened as he was surely taken aback, "Yoongi wh- Why?"

"Just go back, and dont visit me until the hospital gives you a call. It's better this way."

"No, Yoongi. I want to stay here. I do my schooling at the house and come back to visit you everyday until your surgery, please. I-"

"Jungkook," Yoongi cut him off, "I dont want you to see me like this or worse. You've been with me through everything up until now and I know how it has weighed on you. I'm sorry Jungkook. But your finals are coming up and you need to study hard. And you cant do that by coming to visit me everyday. I want you to go back, study, and pass your finals. Get your degree. And by then, I'll be here, waiting for you to come and take me home."

"And what if you're not? What if I never get a call?" Jungkook looked at me, tears swelling in his eyes.

"Then move on. You have a life to live and I want you to do just that."

"Yoongi I can't just 'move on'. You were and are my first and only true love. You're my fiance I cant just move on if you die."

"But you can. You have a whole life ahead of you and there are other people-"

"Yoongi for fucks sake I don't care about other people! You're the only person I want the only person I will ever have on my mind there is no replacement for you. The fact of the matter is that I dont want to move on. I dont want anyone else but you and it'll stay that way from now until forever. No one will ever be like you, steal my heart like you. No one will ever amount to enough to fix me if you're gone."

"Jungkook."

"I'll go back. But I want a call. On either odds I want a call. If you die I want to be the one to bury you. I at least deserve that."

The room went silent before I nodded reluctantly.

"Fine."

"Do your best to make it out. If you wont do it for yourself then do it for me."

I nodded and Jungkook kissed me on the lips. Shrugging his way past the door and down the hallway. I love you Jungkook.

Jungkook POV

As I walked out of the hospital room i shoved my hands into my pockets and watched my feet as I went along. I cant believe he wont let me be here with him. But i have to respect his wishes... I guess. He needs this I know but I need him. If he dies.... well.. i don't know what I'll do.

I looked back in the direction of Yoongi's room once i was out in the drive way.  Come back to me... please.

~~~~~~~~~~Three Weeks Later~~~~~~~~~~~~

I sat in my desk waiting for the results for the sprig final to be posted. This is the last class I'm waiting to see my results from and it's tearing me up. This is it. Either I fail here or pass and get my degree. I shook my leg frantically as i fiddled with my hands, watching as my professor typed away on his computer. His face was sour and it didnt give me a good feeling inside. I did all my projects, did well on all my tests without so much of a sweat being broken but this... this has me all wrecked up inside. I've worked so hard to graduate on time, to get my degree on time, if I don't pass... well honestly I'll be crushed.

"Hey man," one of my classmates leaned over and nudged me in the side, "relax a little eh? Everyone in here is feeling the same exact way you are, only difference is you're the only one we can notice it on. Lower your shoulders, you've been put through a lot through this year and still remained part of the top 5. You did fine trust me. You'll get your degree."